I had one when I was 16 and dropped out of high school.
I'm kinda afraid I'm gonna have another one right now.
My work is online so they don't know how I work in fits and starts, making up for being distracted for hours by other things with rapid catchup. But I have missed a meeting, yesterday, and I feel like I'm going to lock up, out of control, too much to try and do, I can't do any of it I want to stop. I don't like my job and we're getting more micromanaged all the time. I have an event tonight, another this weekend, lots of errands and work to do. just a little panic mixed with flat and before that upset.
I work almost 60 hours a week, 7 days a week, or at least that's what I'm supposed to do. I get so distracted by therapy, house business (we just moved, we're having all kinds of massive repairs I have to oversee and coordinate), tv, anything.
I feel trapped. I only get 5 days off a year, no sick time, I can't take time off very well and RIGHT now is crazy busy.
Summer's started and my kid is home.
I'm not sleeping probably as much as I should and I'm having a lot of volatility around therapy right now, upset about it, can't keep calm, it's a mess, even my therapist was under the psychological weather Monday, said she had major transference that we tried to talk/work through yesterday but it's just not resolving... I just feel out of sorts with her.
I feel unconnected from my husband, like we're just... two people stuck together for convenience and
I don't know. I feel... jumbled.
I'm kinda afraid I'm gonna have another one right now.
My work is online so they don't know how I work in fits and starts, making up for being distracted for hours by other things with rapid catchup. But I have missed a meeting, yesterday, and I feel like I'm going to lock up, out of control, too much to try and do, I can't do any of it I want to stop. I don't like my job and we're getting more micromanaged all the time. I have an event tonight, another this weekend, lots of errands and work to do. just a little panic mixed with flat and before that upset.
I work almost 60 hours a week, 7 days a week, or at least that's what I'm supposed to do. I get so distracted by therapy, house business (we just moved, we're having all kinds of massive repairs I have to oversee and coordinate), tv, anything.
I feel trapped. I only get 5 days off a year, no sick time, I can't take time off very well and RIGHT now is crazy busy.
Summer's started and my kid is home.
I'm not sleeping probably as much as I should and I'm having a lot of volatility around therapy right now, upset about it, can't keep calm, it's a mess, even my therapist was under the psychological weather Monday, said she had major transference that we tried to talk/work through yesterday but it's just not resolving... I just feel out of sorts with her.
I feel unconnected from my husband, like we're just... two people stuck together for convenience and
I don't know. I feel... jumbled.
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