Does anyone else have weird triggers? Feel free to share below. This is my list:
The video game 'Skyrim'
'Star Wars' (or anything associated with it)
Breathing or being kissed on or around my neck (but I can tolerate it during sex only now, and only because I trust my boyfriend 100%)
Sometimes being f**gered will REALLY trigger me (but not like it used to)
S*x in general is triggering although not as bad as it once was... It is weird, it is usually hard for me to have s*x or to "get started" but once we start it is tolerable but then at other times during the middle of it I will just FREAK out and like cry and start to shake or I will just "blank out" and go inside of myself. My response varies and I never know how I will react so it is hard for me to have it now because I never know how I will react and it is embarrassing.
Guys who look or sound a certain way (tone of voice)
Guys with a certain name.....
Certain songs/movies
Domestic Violence
Being threatened with death (even if in a "joking manner") ... Yeah, I know, who would joke about that...
Being choked or having my breathing restricted/strangled
Being hugged or grabbed out of nowhere
Being touched or tickled without my permission
My dad pinching my butt and pretending that he will touch my breasts
Mind control/Gas-Lighting/'Conditioning"
Their names
The 'cabin' (where it took place)
Anything that reminds me of him (my dad is best friends with him. Still...)
The numbers 22 and 29. (They are dates.) 12/29/11 and 09/22/12...
Just, lately I have this 'feeling' of something in my head that needs to be known and I can almost sense it but it's not there. I KNOW that probably made no sense at all...
Leather braided belts
Being followed or harassed and feeling as if I have no escape route (I don't know why this is, my r*pes had nothing to do with stalking)
A guy saying, "You look sexy/hot when you smoke."
Driving by certain places. I almost get these "visions" or pictures in my head but at the same time I can't see them. Does that make sense?
Fall/Autumn
Leaves (changing of the colors)
Corn/beans
Scarecrows
Full Moons (sometimes)
Religion/Bible verses trigger me a lot
People threatening me with burning alive in h*ll for all eternity
Being told I'm scum and that I'll go to h*ll for being an unrighteous and vile girl
Being called stupid, a crybaby, annoying, being told I'll amount to nothing or being made to feel like I'll amount to nothing
Bud Light both the beer and the can
Torture type of activities both mental and physical
Being choked or having my breathing restricted
The smell of urine especially if it's on my clothes/my clothes being wet (he urinated on my body when be was finished)
Porky the Pig
Being hugged out of nowhere
People smacking a ruler or other wooden sticks on their hands making a cracking noise
Being trapped
Electricity (the sound of it really, the buzzing sound it makes)
Men putting my hand on their p*nis
Being forced to kiss someone
Having someone talk my clothes off while I'm drugged/drunk or asleep
Being hurt intentionally
Sometimes woods/timber will trigger me especially at night
The video game 'Skyrim'
'Star Wars' (or anything associated with it)
Breathing or being kissed on or around my neck (but I can tolerate it during sex only now, and only because I trust my boyfriend 100%)
Sometimes being f**gered will REALLY trigger me (but not like it used to)
S*x in general is triggering although not as bad as it once was... It is weird, it is usually hard for me to have s*x or to "get started" but once we start it is tolerable but then at other times during the middle of it I will just FREAK out and like cry and start to shake or I will just "blank out" and go inside of myself. My response varies and I never know how I will react so it is hard for me to have it now because I never know how I will react and it is embarrassing.
Guys who look or sound a certain way (tone of voice)
Guys with a certain name.....
Certain songs/movies
Domestic Violence
Being threatened with death (even if in a "joking manner") ... Yeah, I know, who would joke about that...
Being choked or having my breathing restricted/strangled
Being hugged or grabbed out of nowhere
Being touched or tickled without my permission
My dad pinching my butt and pretending that he will touch my breasts
Mind control/Gas-Lighting/'Conditioning"
Their names
The 'cabin' (where it took place)
Anything that reminds me of him (my dad is best friends with him. Still...)
The numbers 22 and 29. (They are dates.) 12/29/11 and 09/22/12...
Just, lately I have this 'feeling' of something in my head that needs to be known and I can almost sense it but it's not there. I KNOW that probably made no sense at all...
Leather braided belts
Being followed or harassed and feeling as if I have no escape route (I don't know why this is, my r*pes had nothing to do with stalking)
A guy saying, "You look sexy/hot when you smoke."
Driving by certain places. I almost get these "visions" or pictures in my head but at the same time I can't see them. Does that make sense?
Fall/Autumn
Leaves (changing of the colors)
Corn/beans
Scarecrows
Full Moons (sometimes)
Religion/Bible verses trigger me a lot
People threatening me with burning alive in h*ll for all eternity
Being told I'm scum and that I'll go to h*ll for being an unrighteous and vile girl
Being called stupid, a crybaby, annoying, being told I'll amount to nothing or being made to feel like I'll amount to nothing
Bud Light both the beer and the can
Torture type of activities both mental and physical
Being choked or having my breathing restricted
The smell of urine especially if it's on my clothes/my clothes being wet (he urinated on my body when be was finished)
Porky the Pig
Being hugged out of nowhere
People smacking a ruler or other wooden sticks on their hands making a cracking noise
Being trapped
Electricity (the sound of it really, the buzzing sound it makes)
Men putting my hand on their p*nis
Being forced to kiss someone
Having someone talk my clothes off while I'm drugged/drunk or asleep
Being hurt intentionally
Sometimes woods/timber will trigger me especially at night
