Wonder Why I Am Here

[Sammyiam]

Do you ever just wonder if you just haven't got what it takes to be on this planet for a long time. That you just screw everything up around you and make such a shit job of stuff, that you think what am I doing here. You just go from one big screw up to the next and your just not good at being good at life. You just wonder why you are still here ?

 

[Deleted member 541]

It's the depression talking. We all feel that way when we're depressed. Complete failures, we screw everything up, blah, blah, blah. But in reality, we really don't. Try and cut yourself some slack, and also try and find something positive to hang onto and build from there. Depression sucks, but it doesn't mean you can't rise up from it.

 

[Bloomy]

Sure reckognize this - I seem to have a severe existential anxiety

 

[NatBird]

Do you ever just wonder if you just haven't got what it takes to be on this planet for a long time. T...

I can relate to this sentiment at times. I hear the pain in it. Sending a hug if you will recieve it.

In my own case I'm only just starting to properly acknowledge that there were a lot of skills I didn't get to develop, a lot of adverse conditioning and bodged wiring - a system rigged to be ineffectual, destruct, feel worthless etc. and this is why I can end up feeling what you expressed.

Do you have a deeper sense of why you feel this way?

I'm currently just allowing that feeling and acknowledging the losses that have come about as a result of so called 'wrecking', acknowledging the link to my childhood.
I feel like for now this is helping me to really understand and to cultivate the compassion I need to change. It's hard going.

Are you able to care for yourself or experience support and care from others in these times? (In addition to the forum)

I read people's posts on here and feel there is proof that life doesnt always have to feel that way.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Yes :(

 

[NatBird]

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I can relate to this sentiment at times. I hear the pain in it. Sending a hug if you will recieve it....

...but that sonetimes it does and it's part of the journey too.

 

[scout86]

Yes.

But, the perspective from HERE, outside your head, suggests that the world is really a better place because YOU'RE in it @Sammyiam . It may not seem that way to you, from the inside, but from here, it looks like you might be seeing the world through a filter made of cognitive distortions.

 

[littlelostchild]

((Sammy))

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Sammy:hug: Someday you will start to see glimmers of your good heart and spirit.

 

[NatBird]

@Sammyiam how are you today?

 

[Sammyiam]

Sorry everyone I just need a few days thanks for your replies
Sorry

 

[NatBird]

Sorry everyone I just need a few days thanks for your replies
Sorry

no need to be sorry. Just checking how you are...