5 Years, 7 Months, And 30 Days

[ShodokanJenn]

I started to self harm when I was five. From that day on, it was very rare for even one day to pass without deliberately hurting myself. But five years, seven months, and thirty days ago, I cut myself for the last time. It has been a struggle at times, but since that day I have not done ANYTHING to harm myself. It's been liberating, to learn how to handle things without the pain. I'm not trying to brag, I'm just expressing gratitude. I know this will be a life-long fight - there will ALWAYS be times when self-harm is tempting. But I know now, that I can resist that temptation.

 

[chant2012]

Very proud of you! I think that was the same age I stared self-harming too. And it's been a daily thing since I can remember. Even now. Although I don't cut anymore really but injure in other ways. I haven't gone as long as you and that is okay. We're all at our own paces. And you have such a big feat to be grateful for. Support to you.

 

[NatBird]

@ShodokanJenn CONGRATULATIONS. This is very inspiring. Thank you for choosing that path and sharing:)

 

[expectingbetter]

Thank you for sharing such wonderful thing with all us here.

I think that we could all get some hope for ourselves too when we see how you have managed yourself, it shows us it is possible really despite how much hard it is. Thank you for sharing something that much positive, it is so pleasant to read such news.

So much proud of you and grateful too for your success and for you being part of our community.

 

[ShodokanJenn]

Very proud of you! I think that was the same age I stared self-harming too. And it's been a daily thi...

Thanks Chant. It's sad to think that being that young, we'd already started to deliberately hurt ourselves. Kids that young aren't supposed to have to deal with things like that. I'm sorry it was that way for you too. It's okay that you haven't gone that long without it. There are times when going five minutes is an impossible feat. I get that. I know that I've resisted for a long time, but I also am fully aware that any day could bring the temptation beyond what I can resist. I choose to focus on the times I resist, and if I fall, then it will just be a temporary setback. You should be proud every time you resist the temptation, even if it's just for five minutes. I know how hard it is.

 

[ShodokanJenn]

@ShodokanJenn CONGRATULATIONS. This is very inspiring. Thank you for choosing that p...

@NatBird Thank you! It's been a difficult journey, but so worth it.

 

[ShodokanJenn]

Thank you for sharing such wonderful thing with all us here.

I think that we could all get so...

@expectingbetter Thank you! I just happened to look down at my calendar while I was reading through posts, and realized that I knew exactly how long it had been since I last self-harmed. I'm proud of how far I have come. From someone who was getting stitches several times a week, to someone who's been free for that long. If I can do it, maybe it will inspire someone else to believe that they can do it too.

 

[expectingbetter]

The date when you stopped is really worth to be remembered, so it is so normal that you know any day how much has passed since then.

It deserves to be celebrated and it is also a great day not only for you but for all people who love you and care for you.

 

[The Albatross]

Very awesome success/accomplishment. Glad you shared it here.

 

[ShodokanJenn]

Very awesome success/accomplishment. Glad you shared it here.

Thanks @The Albatross . I'm glad I'm able to share here. :)

 

[VikVikViktorious]

First and foremost, congratulations:). I'm very happy for your accomplishment.

Secondly, I must share my thought. When I first read this I thought to myself, "well at least I've never been one to purposely harm myself..."

Then I thought about how I was just laughing about my diet. Making light of the fact that I went from a slice a pizza, to a doughnut, to a large soda, to sour patch kids, then a cookie.

Was thinking about how it's going to take me getting hospitalized one of these days before I change my diet.

Apologies for "piggy backing" off your success - but I suppose you helped me realize in my smug "hmph, I never cut myself" attitude that I harm myself purposely quite often, just in different ways.

I suppose I'll start putting some effort towards changing that, and think of you:)

Thank you!

 

[Kintsugi]

I am so proud of you. Well done, ShodokenJenn. :tup: