Panic Attacks Every Single Morning. This Is So Terrifying

[Mim28]

I have been having panic attacks every single morning. My evenings are usually okay, but right now I am terrified. I am off of work for three months and this is the worst I have ever felt. I know I have been given the time to heal, but I just cant seem to calm down. Does anyone else feel like this? I'm utterly exhausted. I never have energy and I feel like I just want to curl up in a ball. I feel like I ruined my body this time and I just want to relax. Help.....

 

[Silver.]

I was waking up in a panic after weaning off klonopin earlier in the year, every darn morning. It's downright scary. I didn't even have time to think about the day, because there it was.
I found that if I meditated a bit before bed, it really helped me waking up. I also started to do deep breathing as soon as I woke up (you have to be mindful to do this, make a promise that you will do it panic or no panic)
It's getting easier, most days are okay, but there is still at least a day a week this happens.
So sorry you have to go through this, but it can get better x

 

[Mim28]

I was waking up in a panic after weaning off klonopin earlier in the year, every darn morning. It's dow...

Thanks Silver. Sometimes it's so terrifying. I am off of work for a while and I know today I have to get some things done around here. I'm so overwhelmed and scared. I've pushed myself to a point where I think I may have to make some major life changes. I've been honest with my family. I'm tired of trying to protect everyone from how I am feeling. I just have to know this is going to stop. I could just cry all day and I'm so tired.

 

[Friday]

Last year it was taking me about 10 hours to get to a point where I was okay. Wake up in god only knew what headspace, and then panic attacks, anxiety attacks, flashbacks, rage storms, suicidal ideation, zoning out, blah. Just ickiness. But riding them out, working on shortening them, just getting through? Meant I would have the other half of the day, maybe not free & clear, but at least manageable. So that's when I planned on gettin shit done; about 12 hours after I got up :) 10 hours of getting my ass kicked, plus a couple hours of wiggle room / recovery time.

So if you're in a similar cycle right now? Your evenings are okay? That's when I would schedule things.

 

[Mim28]

Thank you. Yes, my evenings are better. I wake in a panic and am almost immobilized. I can actually get things done then. Not much. A couple things. I'm scaring my family and that stresses me out. I could hear my father crying today and then I cried. They always think of me as so strong but I'm not. I'm so burned out I can't take it. It has really hit me since I've been on leave. I think my life has to change but I think it's going to take a long time and I'm scared.