Stressed, Triggered, Depressed, Scattered. Need Help.

[LostInCPTSD]

I have applied for Social Security Disability (filled out firms best I could in condition I was in and possibly foolishly 'employed' Premier Disability which is a firm of some kind but it is very impersonal and you talk to reps basically moving cattle but at least they make sure I'm hitting right steps which I couldn't do on my own. They get a percentage. I'm supposed to have a hearing within next 4-5 months because they denied me at first and denied my appeal. I had my doctor (my physician I have had for over 14 yrs) and my T who diagnosed me with severe PTSD and Major Depression - I saw her as son as I had a complete physical and mental breakdown in Sept 2014 through Dec 2015, saw her 2-3 times a week for first 9 months then went to about once a week and varied from there then I gave up in Dec 2015 as far as CBT and talk therapy and various other types she was versed in, she was also a trauma specialist who was referred through insurance I had via my 21 year career with the state (they illegally fired me while on state disability for this PTSD, etc but I had no energy or resources to fight or sue - the thought itself gave me severe anxiety) - I have two children who's mother is a sociopath - I would have done myself in long ago (it's been almost 2 yrs since employed, state disability ran out I had to cash out retirement to live on and pay for therapy and medical out of pocket for about a year) - I'm getting it from all sides in overwhelmed and I thought I was getting a little better but now that I'm facing becomming homeless in a few months when last of my money runs out (sold everything I have) I'm freaking out daily and can barely keep up with just taking care of my kids (14 yr girl and 11 yr old boy with autism) and driving them to school and back and to cheer practices and games her mother basically forced her to take and pays for is killing me and it's just the first week back to school -!! Aaaagh - I am trying so hard and everything seems to be slipping from my hands and the sociopath has tried in past by lying in court to get full custody and leave me in pain (thankfully court mediator saw through lies, but it was really touch and go - sociopaths are master liars and manipulators and courts favor their mindset and tenacity - not to mention her new husband she married for his endless family access to cash) - my question is 1) HELP DEAR LORD PLEASE (oh wait you can't do anything for me there) 2) what are my chances of approval or do you have tips or advice on getting approved for federal disability at hearing level because I'm fearing homelessness - (I was homeless at 15-17 yrs old, mother abandoned me and left me no contact info - I can't go back to living on streets and starving again!! If I lose everything I will do myself in before facing streets or homeless shelter/half way house) - I'm just so overwhelmed I don't know how to sort out anything in my mind anymore if it stresses me in the slightest - I'm so sorry I'm so stressed triggered depressed and scattered - any help anyone can provide I would appreciate it beyond words - I'm so scared my children are all I have left (no friends no family) signed, Ruined

 

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@LostInCPTSD it just pisses me off to no end when I hear about people getting denied SS for mental health issues. I KNOW people that are on it and don't have shit wrong with them. I know people that get it for being alcoholics and drug addicts. The minute their check comes in, they are at the liquor store or out getting high.

Maybe trying to find an attorney that is versed in SS appeals that would do it pro bono????? Don't give up, keep appealing.

 

[Smile]

I have applied for Social Security Disability (filled out firms best I could in condition I was in...

I can't imagine the stress you must be going through :(
I have very similar experiences to you & I am currently homeless. I would STRONGLY advise you to contact Www.citizensdisability.com. They were actually referred to me by someone else on here so I suppose I'm paying it forward :)

I've been working with them the past few months and they have sped up the process wayyy more than I was able to. They are also extremely kind, listen to your story and have great feedback.

Good luck and keep us updated!

 

[Snowflake]

I am so sorry-just document everything -appts, medication etc.... and hopefully your therapist can't write things to.

I recently heard on the news that many claims are getting approved now due -not sure if there was a lot of complaints or an investigation. So hopefully you will get approval-it's crazy you have to wait several months -

Thinking of you through this-

 

[LostInCPTSD]

I have applied for Social Security Disability (filled out firms best I could in condition I was in...

Wow - I'm confused - this post was actually a reply to another member who said she could help apply for social Security Disability process if ne can't work due to PTSD?! (sounded like member has been through process or was familiar) - looks like moderator edited the beginning of my post, took part of the body and made a header for new topic -! also deleted where it's addressing that member, and where I asked if she could please help or advice in my situation & moved my post to 'suicide ideation' posts, as if I was starting a new thread or discussion about suicide. That kinda sucks. I guess I should become premium so I can delete this?! lol Not thrilled but am very thankful for support rec'd from and genuine caring rec'd from all - sincerely thank you...! I'm just really confused right now and can't focus at all

 

[LostInCPTSD]

I can't imagine the stress you must be going through :(
I have very similar experiences to you & I am cur...

Thank you so much - I will contact them, that gives me some hope. I am so sorry you are homeless right now - it goes beyond words of comprehension how difficult it is to lose the roof overhead - you have intense strength, and sound incredibky together considering what u have gone though - very inspiring. Thank you again for the advice & will certainly follow up and update ! Please take care !

 

[LostInCPTSD]

I am so sorry-just document everything -appts, medication etc.... and hopefully your therapist can't...

Thank you! On goodness that sounds so incredibly wonderful I certainly hope so! I'm just like so used to giving giving giving and getting kicked in face I just feel like if I'm in front of anyone asking for help they will deny me because I apparently have a sign on my forehead that says "I LOVE ABUSE! TAKE UR BEST SHOT ITS FREE!" haha.. making jokes but it's true. I believe in karma and apparently I was Hitler in a previous life or something.. ?! lol thank you ur post made me feel better -! I'm at hearing stage and both my T and Doctor submitted all required documentation - I SHOULD be approved - I just have very hard time trusting anyone let alone our system !! lol so much at stake... take care and thanks again - hoping to be a little less scattered soon.. re-reading my post sounds crazy to me.. probly cause it was moved from reply to suicide post by moderator, but it's probly mostly the 'ol PTSD messing with my head

 

[joeylittle]

Wow - I'm confused - this post was actually a reply to another member who said she could help apply for social Security Disability process if ne can't work due to PTSD?!

Hi - I wrote and informed you I was starting a new thread for you so that your post wouldn't get lost at the bottom of an unrelated thread; the other thread you were on didn't connect to this post. I did not switch forums, you were responding to a thread in the suicide forum. I edited the statement 'I don't mean to hijack this thread'

If you have any requests or further questions, please open a support ticket. There's a link at the bottom of my post, to take you there.

 

[HireALawyer]

I have applied for Social Security Disability (filled out firms best I could in condition I was in...

It's good you have an SSD attorney helping you. Get ALL of your medical and psychiatric records from ALL doctors you saw. Make a copy to send to your attorney. SSD is best attained through a lawyer, unfortunately. Not enough vets know that so you end up wasting a lot of time. From the time the lawyer files, it took my friend about 18 months to get through the process. Lots of paperwork and filing. You CAN do this. Take a deep breath, zero in on what you CAN do, not what you can't. Definitely meditate for 5 min a day and increase over time.

 

[LostInCPTSD]

It's good you have an SSD attorney helping you. Get ALL of your medical and psychiatric records from ALL doctors y...

Thank you - I will do that and try my best to calm symptoms and have faith - thank you for your response! Take care

 

[LostInCPTSD]

Hi - I wrote and informed you I was starting a new thread for you so that your post wouldn't get los...

Ok, thank you - my symptoms are on oberdrive right now so my short term memory takes serious hit and doesn't take much to worry or frustrate me.. it's so annoying!! Lol well thank you I knew you were just doing ur job I just felt vounerable and also didn't realize I was in suicide ideation thread but I'm new and learning to navigate and try and SLOW DOWN.. love this site I'm very appreciative of what you all are doing for us. Take care..