loui50
Gold Member
I had a flashback a few days ago. But it wasn't to any of my traumas, it was to a time that I almost attempted suicide. I have been really close to committing suicide twice. Once with my duty weapon and once with a knife. Does this make sense to anyone. I thought my flashbacks would be about my traumas which are possible childhood abuse, a hurricane and witness to a brutal shark attack on a kid.
In the near suicide I was in my bathtub thinking it would be less mess with a carving knife and was going to kill myself. I was triggered at the time by my therapist failing to keep an appointment. I tried to call her and she refused my calls. Her secratary said she wasn't taking any calls and even though I was practically begging for help she wouldn't talk to me. I called my sister and she came over and I was okay.
Is it possible that I created a new trauma to myself as I was so close to cutting myself and I was extremely upset that my therapist would not help me? I don't see this therapist any more, I have a new one. I am not suicidal now.
The flashback was triggered by a carving knife I saw on the kitchen counter. It was the briefest one I've had. I'm talking split second.
Is this normal??
In the near suicide I was in my bathtub thinking it would be less mess with a carving knife and was going to kill myself. I was triggered at the time by my therapist failing to keep an appointment. I tried to call her and she refused my calls. Her secratary said she wasn't taking any calls and even though I was practically begging for help she wouldn't talk to me. I called my sister and she came over and I was okay.
Is it possible that I created a new trauma to myself as I was so close to cutting myself and I was extremely upset that my therapist would not help me? I don't see this therapist any more, I have a new one. I am not suicidal now.
The flashback was triggered by a carving knife I saw on the kitchen counter. It was the briefest one I've had. I'm talking split second.
Is this normal??
