Sufferer Hello Everyone

[Pixielicious]

I joined a while back, wrote one thread in the middle of a flashback 'when doves cry', and now I am ready to open up. I have Severe PTSD and have written another thread in the assault forum 'severe PTSD'
I can't read many of the threads, because it 'triggers' me, but I've learned more about my condition now because of the wonderful articles on this site.
My heart goes out to all of you who have this horrible disorder....

 

[IamFree]

I joined a while back, wrote one thread in the middle of a flashback 'when doves cry', and now I am...

Thank you and welcome. Indeed it is a tough situation to be in. I have suffered a lot with non acceptance of the condition over many years . Its taken until now for me to realise accepting a situation does not stop it from being difficult but not accepting it makes it more so and we need all the energy we can get to battle this.

 

[Pixielicious]

Thank you and welcome. Indeed it is a tough situation to be in. I have suffered a lot with non acceptan...

Yeah you 'understand me'
I've always been in control of my mind, my reactions, my behaviour.... And To acknowledge and accept the fact that I'm not ok, that I cannot control PTSD was the most difficult thing I've ever done.
Joining this site was my first stage of acceptance.
Even today, I am still fighting to 'snap' out of it. But I am beginning to understand that the more I try to run away from th reality of what I'm going through, the harder it will be for me to recover....Thanks for your post

 

[IamFree]

Thank you, Being able to be of service to other people going through this is very healing for me

 

[Pixielicious]

Ya.

Thank you, Being able to be of service to other people going through this is very healing for me[/QUOTE...

Ya... I know what you mean. I've always been 'helpful' but terrible at accepting 'help' but I finally throw down my gloves and admit that I need help... Through clenched teeth :laugh:

 

[IamFree]

Yes indeed this is were I have fallen down often. The first person we have to know how to serve is are selfs because you cant save anyone by going and jumping down a cliff after them.

 

[Pixielicious]

Yes indeed this is were I have fallen down often. The first person we have to know how to serve is are...

Hahahaha this made me giggle out loud... Lemmings comes to mind

 

[IamFree]

Just to add ..at the same time its important for me to be of service to because it takes me out of poor me its all about me victim mode which I know is no good for me.

 

[IamFree]

or the other one is jumping into quick sand to try and save someone from drowning ha ha ha

 

[Pixielicious]

or the other one is jumping into quick sand to try and save someone from drowning ha ha ha

Yes.. So yes!!
I'm glad to have met someone who can laugh at themselves too... But I can only do this when am in 'ok mode'
Am thinking of creating a music thread, where everyone can post YouTube links to music that helps them or describes what they're going or have gone, through.
It's my main 'medication' for the moment... And praying too.

 

[IamFree]

oh great I will keep a lookout

 

[Richie]

Ya.

Ya... I know what you mean. I've always been 'helpful' but terrible at accepting 'help' but I...

I think this is quite common. Its easier to help other people with their problems but not so easy to help yourself