Worried Over Tomorrow's Session

[Bristol]

@joeylittle thanks for the advice, i wont have chance for that this week as its straight after work but naybe at lunchtime i could try and steal an hours peace. I feel like i am betraying him by not telling him but we have so much crap going on i dont feel like he needs this to, i might as well protect him from what i can

 

[Bristol]

Today is the day, 10 hours time will be the moment of truth, im so scared, feels like a massive mountain to climb

 

[Naoru]

Whether you explain how you're feeling to your therapist, hand over notes, sit quietly without a peep, or dive right in, you're taking steps up that mountain.

You have our support! You can do this. :)

 

[Ronin]

feels like a massive mountain to climb

Pick aall the restaurants and fun on the way up :)

Really, seriously: Get as comfortable as you can, fetch something yummy before you go there, ditto to a nice drink if you can, give yourself a small massage, have a favorite perfume with you, things like that - whatever soothes you. It will be okay, there's no way to mess this up, and I'm sure she'll be very understanding :)

 

[Rumors]

Sending you all the best. Gosh just think after today you don't have to carry this load by yourself anymore. You will have a partner in recovery and someone who will walk that journey with you...

 

[Lilith Jane]

Whatever you decide to do . . . we're on your side. :tup:

 

[Bristol]

You are all so lovely, thanks for the support, sooo nervous but trying to keep busy at work

 

[Lotis]

I hope your appointment goes well and you feel strong enough to talk.

Main problem i have now is that my husband knows none of this

Mine doesn't know either. Do you think he has any idea? What prevents you from telling him? I ask because it is something I struggle with and feel terribly alone with. I wonder if there are other women in my situation and how they have handled it or what their fears are.

~L

 

[Bristol]

@Lotis i think there are a million things that stop me from telling him. Whether he will think less of me, less of my family, whether he will freak out completely and run a mile. I cant imagine he has guessed because i have given him no reason to, i think he has guessed i self harm but has never said anything and i have no idea how to bring it up so until he does or until i find my voice itll always be this way

 

[Bristol]

It was a partial win on my part, i couldnt let her have the bit of paper during the session but i left it on the table for her to read once i left so she knows and i know she knows but she has promised not to quiz me on it next week its just there if i want to talk about it so not too bad, given myself a right geadache.

Thank you all though i reread all your messages before i went in i wouldnt have had the courage to even manage what i did otherwise :hug:

 

[Ronin]

Awesome @Bristol1485 and that's no small a victory. :tup:

 

[Rumors]

Sending strength. That is a really brave thing you did. I hope you can take a few minutes tonight and really feel proud of yourself. That is like hurling yourself off the cliff my friend and not knowing if the parachute will open!!! It's very brave. Please share here as your emotions may run wild over the next little bit. It is always scary to let something so big out of the bag....