Regret Not Getting Brain Scan

[Deleted member 38644]

I regret not getting a brain scan when my ex was beating me and kicking me in my head. Since domestic abuse its been nothing but a destructive cycle of trauma of some kind of abuse. Maladaptive daydreamer is what I been since then. Its a regret that I didn't do it then instead of now. I cant focus on anything. Attention span is gone. Before I found out I had PTSD it seems domestic abuse was a trigger. I regret not going to the hospital. I regret telling the police officer I was ok because nothing never happens to suspect in domestic abuse. At the time I didn't care whether I lived or died

 

[J'qel]

I understand why you're concerned, but don't beat yourself up over it. Domestic abuse is nasty. I still can't talk about mine (after I left my parent's house) that you can is amazing all on it's own. Not going to police is pretty standard for so many reasons, don't feel like less because at the time, you couldn't-there's no shame on you for that.

You can still get checked out, any damage will still show up on a CT. If you're concerned it's certainly viable, though, since you're in the US it may cost.

You could also be having issues with the sheer amount of stress in your life. Talk to your GP and your T. They may be able to help.

Until then, hold on and take care of yourself <3

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Thank you

I understand why you're concerned, but don't beat yourself up over it. Domestic abuse is nasty. I still c...

 

[Esterio]

I regret not getting a brain scan when my ex was beating me and kicking me in my head. Since dome...

hey Lauren thanks for making this post. Domestic violence really sucks and to many perpetrators get away with it I think maybe most of them do. I know far to many people affected by it. But then one is too many. I'm sorry for your pain. You are safe now aren't you? I have suffered multiple head injuries causing concussions and the Symptoms your describe are very similar. I have not had a brain scan and I'm not sure if they are able to see the damage from concussion.
Peace by safe and I hope you have a good night

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Esterio A brain scan can not show a concussion.... I just had one this week. There is a different Scan that they can use, but we don't have the luxury of having that type where I live.

 

[J'qel]

It won't show a concussion, but it can show lingering damage. If you think that it may be currently interfering, then it should show up on a CT, *maybe* on an MRI (depends on the damage).

 

[joeylittle]

@Lauren Taylor - if you think you're having neuro-cognitive problems (the only one you mention is attention span, which can be a brain-tissue problem or a psych problem) - you should talk to your GP and see if you can get a referral for some imaging.

How long ago was the injury?

 

[ms spock]

We all wish that the abuse hadn't impaired us so much so we could have gotten better treatment @Lauren Taylor ! That is a really common feeling to have. You are so not alone with having those feelings. I have been in emotional agony about that!

I had a severe lack of attention for a long time. So I really feel for you on that front!

Maybe not now as you have too much on your plate right now - but later on look at David Burns book which lists all the cognitive distortions and ways of breaking apart stinking thinking. One of these is emotional reasoning - just because you feel something - it doesn't follow that it is true. You are beating up on yourself - I am also particularly skilled at that one. Just because you feel that you are bad and "should" have done more - doesn't mean you are bad, less than or could have done more - if you could have - you would have - you were very traumatised at that time - you didn't care if you lived or died. That is a really crappy place to be. No manner of obessive thinking and rumination changes the past. It is what it is - but there are skills to learn (I did it one minute per day) to manage these thoughts and feelings.

Kristin Neff's website on Self Compassion has free audio downloads - a Self Compassion Break is what you can listen to anywhere in the world, if you have an Internet connection. When you start Self Compassion your self hatred will get worse for a time and that is not easy going.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

It went on for 2 years. Im not able to catch on to anything. I feel slow minded and confused. My attention span has gone down the drain. Maladaptive daydreaming (I just found out the word" has basically tormented my brain causing procrastination. I have to write stuff down or read from a paper to tell you what happened. Just because Im writing something doesn't mean that's what I wanted to say. Im going to bring all of this up. This website really help me because I'm not alone out here like this.

@Lauren Taylor - if you think you're having neuro-cognitive problems (the only o...

 

[Deleted member 38644]

We all wish that the abuse hadn't impaired us so much so we could have gotten better treatment

Thanks for this

 

[ms spock]

I suffer from agonies at times over what I could have, should have, would have done - and I so get where you are with this right now. Many baskets of Self Compassion, if you accept. I really feel for you today!

Another great website is dbtselfhelp - it has instant mindfulness videos on it and I have found the Radical Acceptance one soothing - I so hope you find a couple of self soothing things online to assist you.

You did the best that you could do at the time. That is the long and short of it. You can't go back and change it - and you need to give yourself much kindness, soothing and self compassion.

I still struggle with what you are going through right nowl.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Lauren Taylor If you had repeated trauma to the head and it's been 2 yrs, then I doubt that things will get better. There are probably things that you can do to help yourself to compensate, but it's been too long.

I'm dealing right now with post concussion syndrome from a fall I took @Christmas time. I hit so hard that I detached the viterous in my eye, and now I have memory issues, dizziness, double vision, can't hold a thought to save my ass, and can't seem to follow through with anything.

I'm sorry that you are still dealing with this shit.