DID Somethings wrong?

[Muttly]

this is a stupid post probably

something is wrong. we not ok. maybe not ok physically or mentally. don't know. internal communication is broken down. so dissociated. sent an email to our T too. said we not ok. she replied and asked what's going on. don't know. hard to squeeze out any words

sorry

 

[Psychomamatisme]

Be careful you don't go into a fugue state. Know people are going through the same thoughts and feelings

 

[Sideways]

Time out. Start with your breathing, and go from there.

Things are too hard / complicated / overwhelming? Simplify. Breathe, drink water, wash your face, put on some comfy socks, lower the expectations, breathe some more.

Then reassess. Am I safe right now? If so, breathe, simplify, breathe. The worst of it will pass. If it doesn't? You call an ambulance, and make sure it's not something physical.

 

[Muttly]

thank you both. reading your posts helped.

I... we've lost a fair chunk of the day. :/ definitely not a high point for us. we tried to take in both of your advice and we are more grounded now I guess

as far as the physical.. I don't suppose we've posted here but we got the flu. And then we got bronchitis. And that has triggered some asthma issues for us. And we found all this out at the doctor a week ago and got on meds and started to feel better and then yesterday we started to feel worse. And we were taking medicine today or even using the inhaler and a little one panicked. we ok. don't know why we sicker again though

at some point we going to have to poke at what's triggering us but can't right now.

 

[Sideways]

Sorry to hear you've been sick - be gentle with yourself. Poking at stuff right now isn't the time:)

 

[Ronin]

at some point we going to have to poke at

You don't need to, homies.

Bad health is as seen triggering badly enough. Let it rest, the other stuff? Will still be there later. You don't needa chase it now.

 

[Muttly]

Bad health is as seen triggering badly enough. Let it rest, the other stuff? Will still be there later. You don't needa chase it now.

Ok, first, you calling me homies made me happy for some reason. like we becoming friends or something

Except we sort of feel like we need to poke at it. we need to know why we doing so badly right now. We not so dissociated today, but we so anxious we crawling out of our skin.

And yeah, we seem to get triggered with health stuff sometimes. At least our T says we do. Especially when it comes to breathing and coughing. We've probably had the kind of asthma we have (of course we don't have normal asthma) since childhood but our mom flat out said we were faking. That we were coughing to get attention. She also treated our complaints about her smoking as personal attacks on her. And then there's the other issue we have around not being able to breath... but that's one we can't talk about without panic. And we do feel totally defective and like we a fake and a problem when we sick... but... but...

there's something... something else is bothering insiders. like bad ptsd issue. feels crazy to not know why there's so much upset inside.

 

[Ronin]

made me happy

I'm glad it has.

And we do feel totally defective and like we a fake and a problem when we sick... but... but...

You're not defective, you're not a fake, and even if your issues were caused by something 'mental health' that's still real issues.

So that's still /something/, what's causing that something is a secondary question, and none of that means y'all faking even remotely.

feels crazy to not know why there's so much upset inside.

Is there anyone inside that can talk about any of it? Or anyone that has an idea what you can do about the upset, without divulging what's up? Thinking if you could do something working on minimal information, with what you have already, if illness and stress makes communication difficult. Sort of, if something's basics that you could do without the full picture that would make it possible to get to the fuller picture later.

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

It's okay to not know why you are upset (or all of you is upset, or one of you is upset). It's okay to do what you need to do to stay safe. When my insiders are freaking out, hiding under a blanket with a stuffed animal helps so much. It's okay to do things like that when you need to. Eventually, the feeling will pass.