What Do You Call This?

[Wyska]

I have no idea what this is and can't seem to find anyone with anything similar. I want to say disassociation but I'm not sure.

What do you call not being able to hear your own thoughts and feelings and opinions clearly or at all, almost kind of like ignoring them but not being able to stop. Like you hear yourself talking to yourself in your head constantly and there is muffled background noise that you can't hone in on but you vaguely know its there sometimes?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

There are many levels of disassociation from day dreaming to DID but it is basically, mentally, not being present of where you currently are. So you are sitting in class but are mentally somewhere else. That can vary greatly but thats basically what disassociation is.

I am confused at how you describe what you are refering to.

This:

not being able to hear your own thoughts and feelings and opinions clearly or at all, almost kind of like ignoring them but not being able to stop.

Seems vastly different from:

you hear yourself talking to yourself in your head constantly and there is muffled background noise that you can't hone in on but you vaguely know its there sometimes?

Hearing yourself talking to yourself in your head is hearing your own thoughts and possibly opinions and feelings.

So i am just a bit confused. Can you describe it a bit more?

 

[Freedomfighter]

There are many levels of disassociation from day dreaming to DID but it is basically, mentall...

Agreed, the description is off, or there are many different symptoms that are giving the patient trouble at one time.

Disassociation seems different to me, the constant thoughts in that description would point more to repeating of the fears a PTSD patient might be experiencing. The background noises description is what is kind of separate from having to deal with disassociation.

 

[Wyska]

There are many levels of disassociation from day dreaming to DID but it is basically, mentall...

Uhm, I guess what I mean is you still have that sorta dominant voice in your head but everything else seems to be detached.
It kinda feels like part of me has separated from the rest?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

It kinda feels like part of me has separated from the rest?

I call that seperation.

It doesn't have any other name in my world. I am seperated from my past and thus speak about it flat affect, matter of fact, giving you the weather like. I have recently learned that I am just as seperated from my emotions from the past thus I have created DID-like "alters" in my head and created personalities of sorts for them but they are nothing more then emotions from my past.

What do you think the "everything else" that feels detacted is? Emotions? Addtl thoughts? Opinions? All the above or none of the above?

 

[Wyska]

I call that seperation.

It doesn't have any other name in my world. I am seperated from my...

Definitely all of the above.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Well @Wyska, you asked what that is. I would say, then, it's seperation from your trauma and also most likely emotions, thoughts, opinions. You may have secetioned off opinions where you don't give yourself permission to have opinions. Maybe you don't feel like you deserve to have opinions about things?

I don't think it has a name but is, rather, how one deal with trauma and survives it. And it may be a few things going on. Maybe thoughts that spin fast amd maybe your brain seperating you from them making them muffled as your stress cup is overfull and you can't handle it all at once.

That's another thing. How one handles stress or how one handles other things when their stress cup is already full could be part of it. Or at least what it sounds like to me.

ETA: The Ptsd Cup Explanation

 

[Panda Bear]

Separation....

It's an extreme side of the disassociation spectrum, at least that's my experience with it.

 

[Wyska]

Separation....

It's an extreme side of the disassociation spectrum, at least that's my experience w...

Do either of you know anymore information on separation or where to find some?