1 All this bloody self hate non stop chat made me cried today. Deep sadness, broken spirit feeling like..
2 So I took to myself to buy a pair of jeans of MY size. Old ones too small for this «ballomy» tummy. Meds are altering bodyshape, and some conforting eating, too.
3 Went to theatre, wow!! It was a comedy on, and went alone. I felt guilty for spending money on leissure. I hardy allow to myself some free time. But I went. And the play was
very good!
4 Back home and cried again. I learn my favorite theater player is into the type of meditation cult I was in, and it has made a play about, and is coming to my town!!!!
5 Sometimes all feels sooo out of this world