Feel really, really bad

[Taco]

I started an anti-depressant a couple of months ago because, frankly, doctors have been bullying. Won't help with medical stuff, but won't f*cking shut up about the mood issues, even when I say I don't want to take the meds. I've been on so many and they don't help. At least not for long.

So I feel more energy - not a lot, but more. Only feeling more energy doesn't mean I feel better. In fact, more energy means more anxiety only. And the anti-depressant has dulled the ability to express my emotions, so I can't cry, even when I really need to.

And my therapist just goes on, like none of this is important and we have all the time in the world to fix things.

But it's been a long, long time and I'm really just tired.

 

[Ecu]

And my therapist just goes on, like none of this is important and we have all the time in the world to fix things.

can you tell her this? That you feel you don't have the time she thinks you do? One biggie for me in this was that I had to learn a new way to look at time and it was/is one of the harder things for me to deal with. To do that, my T and I had to really look at how I measure days, hours, progress, etc. Once we were on the same page it got easier...

 

[Taco]

can you tell her this? That you feel you don't have the time she thinks you do? One biggie for me in this was that I had...

I'm going to try again. It's hard, though. He just doesn't seem to get it. I've tried again and again and no one seems to get it.

 

[Roho]

Has your T explained why he feels you need an anti-depressant?
Is there a goal he wants you to reach?

Example, I know you don’t want to be on an anti-depressant, but I think it may help you until you can learn some coping skills.

Some therapist believe this can help.
But everyone is different. What works for one may not work for another.

 

[Taco]

Has your T explained why he feels you need an anti-depressant?
Is there a goal he wants you to reach?

Example, I know...

It wasn't my therapist who prescribed or even suggested it (although we have tried many things and he wasn't against trying meds again). It was a doctor I went to for a consult. Not a psychiatrist, but a doctor I was hoping would help with medical stuff. He thought I should try meds again. My family doctor had already spent the previous visit bullying me to take meds when I told her I didn't want to. I didn't agree to, but finally did with this other doctor since I'd heard it from 3 doctors and they wouldn't shut the f*ck up about it. It's like what I want doesn't matter. And my experience with them doesn't count.

My family doctor said she thought the meds would make me "happy." Yes, she said that. The one I consulted with said I should try since nothing else seems to be working. Except I've tried this too, and they don't work either. I wanted to see if maybe there was some autoimmune connection, but...oh well.

My therapist is sort of like a wet, lukewarm dishrag at this point. IF it works it works and if it doesn't it doesn't...

 

[Ifivi]

I understand the frustration. The push for antidepressants for anxiety is so prevalent. They just try one after another, and they do bully. It seems to be such a common tactic. They don't take you serious when you ask them to explore other sources of symptoms or non related health issues. I had to start demanding tests and finally decided to try new dr.s. You may have to try more Dr.s Interview them first before deciding to become a patient if your insurance allows for that.

 

[Beso]

Never take psychotropic meds from a family doctor. They don't have the knowledge needed to manage medication for psychiatric disorders. Always see a psychiatrist!

 

[Labi]

Do you have the option to see a psychiatrist? In my experience, other medical professionals tend to not question their judgement and become more agreeable to running tests if someone else is handling the medication aspect. A psychiatrist would be better at suggesting other prescription options.

 

[Taco]

Never take psychotropic meds from a family doctor. They don't have the knowledge needed to manage medication for psychiat...

Again. It wasn't my family doctor who prescribed the meds. It was a specialist, but not a psychiatrist. I can't afford a psychiatrist. And I've been to psychiatrists before. One nearly killed me, prescribing the wrong dose of a psychotropic med to me. Just because they are a psychiatrist, doesn't mean they know what they are doing.

 

[Taco]

Do you have the option to see a psychiatrist? In my experience, other medical professionals tend to not question their j...

I can't afford a psychiatrist right now. Also, given past experience with them, my trust of them is non-existent.

 

[Oma]

Can you tell us what antidepressant you are now taking?

 

[Focut]

Can you tell us what antidepressant you are now taking?

Effexor XR. And recently started Lamictal. Actually, feeling a little better. At least, more energy. Still feel like there is no point to life and no purpose in my existence, but hey...as long as I have energy, right? :(