I can’t trust my partner.

[Faketan]

Me and my partner have been together a year and a half. At first I was strong and had a lot of trust in the universe and what happens happens attitude I developed PTSC after he got depressed for 3 months * my ptsd was from a 5 yr abusive relationship).
For the last year I don’t trust myself or him. He has no trust in me either even thought he tries he doesn’t. He can also be immature also and cause me a lot of distress with his reaction when my PTSD triggers ( he will give me no support and tell me to get over it).
I often lash out, screaming, breaking things i also can self harm, he will watch me for at least 2 hours before giving me any type of comfort or supper . It takes a toll on him and myself. He is fed up with me and I’m paranoid because he is annoyed and fed up with me. This cycle keeps going on and on. When he goes on nights out I get severe anxiety which I can control until he is late home or I can’t contact him for hours.

I’m in therapy but he won’t get it even though Iv asked.

My question is, is it a process to gain trust and should I just let go before I hurt myself and him even more. Am I crazy? I don’t know what to do.

 

[Justmehere]

There are a lot of unhealthy things happening in this relationship.

he will watch me for at least 2 hours before giving me any type of comfort or supper .

The way you describe him is more like a parent than a partner.

Your reactions to him suggest you may not be in the place to be dating right now. I’d focus on your treatment. Will you be able to regain his trust? Hard to say. If he stays or goes, your focus should be on stabilization.