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In my past I've had very negative cognitive distortions...and now I am living in my truth...meaning I don't have to "feel" like others feel...when I'm feeling happy, joyous, and free!
And since there are a few unhappy souls around me (out here in my personal life) that I've unfortunately recently already experienced their inner-pain up close and personal this holiday season...I just do not want to be drawn into anyone's "victim status" and their sideshow circus ring status.
I've taken the time to listen to them over and over and over and over again talk about how this one hurt them and that one is the now cause for their pain, and I've tried to reassure them, I've listened and reassured...until I'm out of patience and at my wits end listening and reassuring. I just want to be around my precious friends who are HAPPY! like me! There's nothing wrong with this!
I'd carefully a few years ago...personally selected (hand-picked) these few negative people to be my 'friends' and I was just like them...NEGATIVE...and sitting in my own trauma pain and unwilling to work on it...to look at it...and back then when I made 'friends' with these few 'friends' I was then also unwilling to extricate my self from my trauma pain.
And I am now NOT where these few 'friends' are anymore...due to working very hard in my trauma recovery...and I do not have to be ashamed of not wanting to be around them anymore. And I will not be guilted re: same. I just cannot 'fix' anyone. No.
And I've wasted so much time already trying to make others 'happy' when I have my hands full with my self.
These are a few 'friends' who have talents, blessings, and recovery opportunities just like I have...to be in PTSD recovery.
Yet these few very miserable 'friends' seem to be unable to see their blessings nor acknowledge them...and therefore project out and on to others...their extreme negativity and stark, and distinct to their own personal yet shared with others unfortunate trauma histories and present unhinged circumstances.
and these few very miserable 'friends' seem to be unwilling to try and own and deal with their own trauma therapy with their own personal unhappiness (from their own trauma histories).
And because the seem to be unwilling to go into trauma therapy and/or deal head-on with same their trauma issues that are causing them to vomit negativity onto others (me) instead of their choosing to look within themselves at their own private pain and problems...instead they choose to project their trauma pain and unhappiness onto others.
I am aware of this...and am moving away from this now. Yep.
And they're unwilling to look in their mirror and deal with their own trauma issues and residual pain. And I'm unwilling to sacrifice any more time waiting for them to go into trauma therapy recovery. I'm done. Cooked. Over it. And I'm not shadowing as Carl Jung has explained...when one's thought(s) become destructive when one is repressing issues and thus projecting them onto others. No, I am not doing this.
And since there are a few unhappy souls around me (out here in my personal life) that I've unfortunately recently already experienced their inner-pain up close and personal this holiday season...I just do not want to be drawn into anyone's "victim status" and their sideshow circus ring status.
I've taken the time to listen to them over and over and over and over again talk about how this one hurt them and that one is the now cause for their pain, and I've tried to reassure them, I've listened and reassured...until I'm out of patience and at my wits end listening and reassuring. I just want to be around my precious friends who are HAPPY! like me! There's nothing wrong with this!
I'd carefully a few years ago...personally selected (hand-picked) these few negative people to be my 'friends' and I was just like them...NEGATIVE...and sitting in my own trauma pain and unwilling to work on it...to look at it...and back then when I made 'friends' with these few 'friends' I was then also unwilling to extricate my self from my trauma pain.
And I am now NOT where these few 'friends' are anymore...due to working very hard in my trauma recovery...and I do not have to be ashamed of not wanting to be around them anymore. And I will not be guilted re: same. I just cannot 'fix' anyone. No.
And I've wasted so much time already trying to make others 'happy' when I have my hands full with my self.
These are a few 'friends' who have talents, blessings, and recovery opportunities just like I have...to be in PTSD recovery.
Yet these few very miserable 'friends' seem to be unable to see their blessings nor acknowledge them...and therefore project out and on to others...their extreme negativity and stark, and distinct to their own personal yet shared with others unfortunate trauma histories and present unhinged circumstances.
and these few very miserable 'friends' seem to be unwilling to try and own and deal with their own trauma therapy with their own personal unhappiness (from their own trauma histories).
And because the seem to be unwilling to go into trauma therapy and/or deal head-on with same their trauma issues that are causing them to vomit negativity onto others (me) instead of their choosing to look within themselves at their own private pain and problems...instead they choose to project their trauma pain and unhappiness onto others.
I am aware of this...and am moving away from this now. Yep.
And they're unwilling to look in their mirror and deal with their own trauma issues and residual pain. And I'm unwilling to sacrifice any more time waiting for them to go into trauma therapy recovery. I'm done. Cooked. Over it. And I'm not shadowing as Carl Jung has explained...when one's thought(s) become destructive when one is repressing issues and thus projecting them onto others. No, I am not doing this.
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