To ask or not to ask... for a phone call

[UnicornSightings]

I agree! Amazing job reaching out to whatever help is available!! I hope your doctor’s partner can help you. And try not to worry so much about your t quitting. It’s ok to get upset and surely she will understand you are not yourself right now.

 

[Justmehere]

F*cking crisis text. I told them point blank how bad this are they called me by someone else’s name and I asked them to stop and they didn’t... and I went back to do I’m in this crisis and explained it point blank and they closed the crisis text.

I suck at getting help.

 

[UnicornSightings]

F*cking crisis text. I told them point blank how bad this are they called me by someone else’s nam...

You can try again, they have a ton of counselors. You won’t get the same one. Sorry you had a bad experience. Don’t make that mean you suck at getting help. And if you’re really unstable check yourself in somewhere to stay safe!!

 

[Justmehere]

They told me I can text tomorrow.

ER declined a psych eval twice. Because there is massive shortage of beds and one has to be in the act to even be evaluated.

 

[mylunareclipse]

I am so sorry you're struggling. Have definitely been there unfortunately. Especially with any med modification it can get very tricky.
Lately I have made a grounding box and it's really helping me. I have small puzzles and word finding books in there.
Seems like right now the best you can is distract yourself or just do something relaxing i.e. Even watching a movie. It seems like one of those times where the only thing you can do is accept and stop trying to fix it. Hopefully tomorrow your t can give you more answers.
I think it's very very brave that you've asked for help.
Sending hugs.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Did you go to the ER or call them????

 

[Justmehere]

I went in person twice to the ER.

I told the primary care doctor I am suicidal and I need help and he said there is nothing he can do. He pushed for me to get counseling. I explained there isn’t one to see today. He just kept pushing to contact my counselor. I showed him the texts. I asked him for help.

How is this happening?

 

[ButterflyBean]

@She Cat, the OP has tried everything she knows to get adaquate help. Point blank, the system has failed her yet again!

ER declined a psych eval twice. Because there is massive shortage of beds and one has to be in the act to even be evaluated.

@Justmehere, I want to help, I really do! Honestly, can you keep yourself safe? Is there someone you can stay with until your appointment tomorrow? Does your T know that the ER denied you?

Now, let’s go back to what you need right now: to be and feel loved. What does that look like for you? I’m sure that includes safety...what constitutes emotional safety for you? Please PM me if it will help...I’m listening!

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Justmehere if you have a car, then I suggest you get in it and drive to the next Town or City that has a hospital. I’ve done this when I’ve needed to and they accommodated me. It’s worth the drive if you are that bad...

 

[UnicornSightings]

Email or call every damn therapist in your city. Surely someone has an hour today to spare! Or those offices could know if other resources. My other post got deleted somehow but can you just be with family or friends or people in general to stay safe?

 

[Justmehere]

The nurse grabbed me as I walked out. There was a therapist in the building on his lunch hour. He sat and talked with me for about 30 minutes. He asked if I had a therapist I could reach and I explained I had tried. He explained how the meds from being sick are causing this crash, all my weird psych symptoms, and came up with a plan to “white knuckle it” (his words) through today and tomorrow until I can see her and mostly until these side effects pass... and told me to not worry about my therapist she knows I’m out of sorts and this isn’t normal for me. He prayed with me. (I welcomed it.) That was nice and surprising.

I mostly just cried. And then my nose bled all over because apparently, that’s another side effect.

I went for a long walk in the cold. That is grounding me. I really don’t feel like myself. I’m not thinking normally or clearly. The therapist and doc said none of this is PTSD, all side effects, and no point going to the ER, they won’t admit and can’t help.

I just have to hang through. And stop spinning out.

 

[UnicornSightings]

The nurse grabbed me as I walked out. There was a therapist in the building on his lunch hour. He sa...

Omg that’s so awesome he helped you on his lunch break! Are you feeling a bit better? Can you get off these meds?