I saw so many miracles that indicated that God is real. I started to come out of it after about five months after I was in jail. I lost my ex. I was totally broken.
I can understand why I would turn to God rather than anyone else. The Lord has assured me that He will vindicate me. I pray that those ppl come to the cross of Salvation.
Sounds like the stuff my brain had going on inside of it when I was psychotic, after having been subjected to pretty extreme sleep deprivation over the course of about 2 weeks, by my abuser, keeping me up with all sorts of scary and horrible shit. Eventually I experienced a psychotic break from reality.
Regardless of how you got there, you definitely had some pretty extreme things happen to you that -totally- could have the potential to initiate psychosis, and delusions, and all that stuff.
Even tho I have anxiety I can’t feel the Holy Ghost when I’m on that crap
See, this is -exactly- the sort of stuff that you think when you're psychotic. I had the same sort of delusions going on myself. You aren't "feeling" the holy ghost -ever-. Because shit like that isn't real dude. Think about it. It's not normal, nowhere near normal. Seeing signs and shit? not normal - that's what happens when you're experiencing psychosis "undeniable" or "irrefutable" signs of god's existence, or that he's communicating with you, are madness. There's nothing wrong with being religious but, sometimes your brain starts to misfire and shit, from extreme things happening to it, and afterwards - it starts to have a messed up sense of meaning and association, and you will see coincidences that you -think- are signs from god or such things, when really they are just your brain glitching out.
There might not be much point in saying these things to you. But - you need some help before you wind up getting into more trouble. Like some mental health help. Have a professional try to figure out if you're psychotic or having any other mental health issues at the moment. It would suck if you did something stupid, while delusional, and got put in jail for it.
