desiderata310
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My psych has agreed with my therapist that my tbi issues are interfering with my job. And admittedly, my job is insane.
It took a good bit of convincing from my therapist to consider quitting my job and moving back, after there was a conversation between the psych and my therapist, it suddenly became: go out on disability- don't just quit as that will at least get you a few weeks of 60% of your income and then the plan is to get me on partial SSI disability.... I think.
So I'm torn about this plan.
I left my last job after a long stint off on long term disability (which as it turned out, I was completely stiffed and I'm fighting still) and I don't want this to be seen as my M. O. At some point in the not so distant future I would like to be able to hold down a full time job in a related field again. I'm just not quite healed it seems.
I would also like to not end up just having no income and losing everything.
Right now my 'everything' includes my car, my dog, phone service and my very meager belongings that will fit in my tiny car with my big dog.
I would prefer not to be homeless. That said, I will, for a time, be 'homeless' in the very near future as I couch surf my way back west. I've already given notice on my home.
No, I'm not anxious about any of this, yet.
I know that my psych is supportive and spoke about making sure I don't 'fall through the cracks'
I'm not without a friend/family member who can let me crash somewhere for a bit and my therapist seems honestly committed to helping me (along with a case worker from the tbi non-profit) in being successful in my transition.
confused yet?
Yeah. I am too.
I guess the questions on my mind are about my best next steps. (I have to leap by July 22)
Do I go out on disability? if so when? Will that company be able to deny that coverage like the last one?
Would it be better to give two weeks notice and leave and try to collect unemployment? (there's a CHANCE I could collect)
Do I give two weeks notice and just run?
It's too late to stick it out (without trying to find a new place to live here in town RIGHT THE HELL NOW)
I'm just scared of getting out of here and finding myself unemployable and unable to get any assistance of any sort.
Before you ask, I'm not doing well at work. I'm struggling. It's not an easy job, and I've made enormous mistakes on payrolls, etc. Moreover I've been working pretty consistent 80-90 hour weeks since April. I'm exempt so no OT for me. I'm exhausted and throw PTSD on top of this mix, I've been finger nailing my way through the last six months.
It took a good bit of convincing from my therapist to consider quitting my job and moving back, after there was a conversation between the psych and my therapist, it suddenly became: go out on disability- don't just quit as that will at least get you a few weeks of 60% of your income and then the plan is to get me on partial SSI disability.... I think.
So I'm torn about this plan.
I left my last job after a long stint off on long term disability (which as it turned out, I was completely stiffed and I'm fighting still) and I don't want this to be seen as my M. O. At some point in the not so distant future I would like to be able to hold down a full time job in a related field again. I'm just not quite healed it seems.
I would also like to not end up just having no income and losing everything.
Right now my 'everything' includes my car, my dog, phone service and my very meager belongings that will fit in my tiny car with my big dog.
I would prefer not to be homeless. That said, I will, for a time, be 'homeless' in the very near future as I couch surf my way back west. I've already given notice on my home.
No, I'm not anxious about any of this, yet.
I know that my psych is supportive and spoke about making sure I don't 'fall through the cracks'
I'm not without a friend/family member who can let me crash somewhere for a bit and my therapist seems honestly committed to helping me (along with a case worker from the tbi non-profit) in being successful in my transition.
confused yet?
Yeah. I am too.
I guess the questions on my mind are about my best next steps. (I have to leap by July 22)
Do I go out on disability? if so when? Will that company be able to deny that coverage like the last one?
Would it be better to give two weeks notice and leave and try to collect unemployment? (there's a CHANCE I could collect)
Do I give two weeks notice and just run?
It's too late to stick it out (without trying to find a new place to live here in town RIGHT THE HELL NOW)
I'm just scared of getting out of here and finding myself unemployable and unable to get any assistance of any sort.
Before you ask, I'm not doing well at work. I'm struggling. It's not an easy job, and I've made enormous mistakes on payrolls, etc. Moreover I've been working pretty consistent 80-90 hour weeks since April. I'm exempt so no OT for me. I'm exhausted and throw PTSD on top of this mix, I've been finger nailing my way through the last six months.