Medical It happened again - Emergency Surgery

[Briar Rose]

Thanks for thinking of me, and asking again :)
I am doing okay, I guess.
Still, my body sensations are more intense, but I am not having as many flashbacks as the first few weeks after surgery! That’s a good thing!
But I am struggling more with this event that I like to admit…
Every morning I wake up really stressed asking myself if there are any appointments today, if I need to see any Hospitals, or I am having emotional flashbacks, till I am fully awake and realize where I am and which date it is.
And I recognized that I am getting really worried about my body, every little thing is a possible freak out for me. Because of my chronic illness this is a problem I am dealing with on a daily base, and all these stress increased my fatigue.
But I started to do sports, my physiotherapist showed me some things to do at home, and I am doing them regularly. I really hope that improving my body and hopefully health will help fighting depression. It’s tough but I need to start at some point, and I just hope that everything will work out this time...

 

[blackemerald1]

I really hope that improving my body and hopefully health will help fighting depression. It’s tough but I need to start at some point,

^^I think you are onto a very potent way to help your body heal and overcome the depression at the same time. Looking after your health is more than just a 'positive outlook'. Actually, I don't really think that helps that much tbh. But getting your body to obey your mind and seeing it respond does feedback to your brain some really good stuff. It's well worth pursuing. :)

Exercise will also help with learning to trust your body again and not viewing it like it may betray you sooner than later and it should also help with chronic fatigue too.

But take it slowly and steadily and increase the duration and intensity of your exercise gently. Can you see a nutritionist too?

I am so glad you were given some exercise to do. That is a good start.

 

[Briar Rose]

Exercise will also help with learning to trust your body again and not viewing it like it may betray you sooner than later and it should also help with chronic fatigue too.

I never thought about it this way, but you are so right. I was to focused on feeling physically better. I need to learn to have trust in my body again but it’s a hard and long road…
I was diagnosed with Multiple sclerosis a little more than a year ago, so chronic fatigue is a big deal for me, it increased in the last weeks, I guess it’s kind of bent to depression and my high stress level, also not having a good sleep. Excepting the diagnosis and how it affected me is though work, and when it comes together with trauma it can be really mixed and messed up sometimes.

I saw a nutritionist for a really long time, while I was having symptoms but wasn’t diagnosed yet, she was such a good help, and till today I can mail her if I have any questions etc.
At the moment I am trying to gain a bit of weight, because I lost some kg again after surgery, and I was really skinny before, I am one of the person with an ‘I can eat what I want body’ ? after all that’s something ?

I realized that the surgery in November was a major throw back for me, in recovery physically and in terms of dealing with trauma, that is a point I am trying to accept at the moment. That it is OK to feel the way i feel, that it is totally okay that I need time to overcome this, and that I need to take that time. I try to live from day to day or hour to hour on bad days, and not to think to far ahead, or compare myself to before surgery....