Sufferer Newly diagnosed and ongoing trauma

[Lostandlonely]

Hello. I’m 27 and suffering from ongoing ptsd. I have not received any treatment for this despite asking. I am being treated badly by everyone I’m meeting. I have lost touch with myself and can’t trust anyone. They write lies about me. I’ve been in and out if a eating disorder clinic, mocked and lied to by specialists and therapists and doctors. Ive been in and out of hospital for my eating disorder. I’m currently in one and was recently in one for two weeks, then a month and two weeks and what seems like endless other times
I am under watch 24/7 Most times by “watch nurses” and am on NG feed. I am treated bad by several of these nurses and have had threats. I’ve tried to take my life and one time tried to escape from hospital and was chased by security guards.
I have no friends and my mother is my only family. She is untrustworthy, a narcissist and has borderline personality (I was diagnosed with this also myself).
People treat me like a stupid child and act coy around me. They hide their true agendas, some “act” nice then I read what they say about me on paper and they treat me mother with respect and like an angel.
I have tried making friends online and apps like bumble and vila. I also reached out for help to visit me in hospital on fb... no one came. No response on apps or I csnt carry a conversation. My heart aches and I feel all control is taken from me. I csnt trust anyone. My mother spilled all my secrets to a psych I told her betrayed me. I am codependent in my mother so unfortaunfelg need her help as I was raised to need her for 24/7. I csnt drive or anything. Every day I want to die and have no idea what to do anymore

 

[Kubash16]

I’m glad you’ve found our community, we have a great group here. Have you been diagnosed with PTSD? Also, what do you mean by asking for help with treatment and not receiving any? What country are you in? Lastly, a hard question (feel free to ignore) but, are you sure everyone (all the staff and everything) are actually treating you badly or are you feeling vulnerable and defensive when they are trying to help? I only ask because obviously there will be bad seeds in any profession, but I find it hard to think that it’s absolutely everyone, I could be wrong though.

Either way, welcome.

 

[Lostandlonely]

I’m glad you’ve found our community, we have a great group here. Have you been diagnosed with PTSD? Also, what do you mean by asking for help with treatment and not receiving any? What country are you in? Lastly, a hard question (feel free to ignore) but, are you sure everyone (all the staff and everything) are actually treating you badly or are you feeling vulnerable and defensive when they are trying to help? I only ask because obviously there will be bad seeds in any profession, but I find it hard to think that it’s absolutely everyone, I could be wrong though.

Either way, welcome.

Yes I was diagnosed with c-ptsd. I get treated like a child and stupidity by everyone I meet.
I have tried getting help I never receive a response by letter or phone or appointments. I don’t want to state my country on a public forum. Well, not everyone but everyone treats me like a child in some way. I feel so utterly worthless. I’m in so much emotional pain every single day

 

[Kubash16]

The only reason I asked about what country you are from is I know healthcare and how it’s approached varies greatly.

For the United States, do you have insurance? If not, do you have an MHMR near you? They aren’t the greatest and can take some time to get in but it’s worth it. You also have the option of walking into an emergency room to get temporary help. If anyone in those capacities are going against protocol and completely ignoring you or otherwise treating you unprofessionally, in the US, you have options to report them to state boards, their supervisors, or even using the power of social media and letting others know how they act. However, I would caution only doing any of those if there are exact rules they are breaking. If you just aren’t getting along (which is totally normal and okay), you have (in the US) the right to choose different providers.

Have you tried contacting any of their supervisors and letting them know what’s going on? Because it’s not okay for anyone to ignore you altogether.

 

[Ajtalex011235]

Hello. I’m 27 and suffering from ongoing ptsd. I have not received any treatment for this despite asking. I am being treated badly by everyone I’m meeting. I have lost touch with myself and can’t trust anyone. They write lies about me. I’ve been in and out if a eating disorder clinic, mocked and lied to by specialists and therapists and doctors. Ive been in and out of hospital for my eating disorder. I’m currently in one and was recently in one for two weeks, then a month and two weeks and what seems like endless other times
I am under watch 24/7 Most times by “watch nurses” and am on NG feed. I am treated bad by several of these nurses and have had threats. I’ve tried to take my life and one time tried to escape from hospital and was chased by security guards.
I have no friends and my mother is my only family. She is untrustworthy, a narcissist and has borderline personality (I was diagnosed with this also myself).
People treat me like a stupid child and act coy around me. They hide their true agendas, some “act” nice then I read what they say about me on paper and they treat me mother with respect and like an angel.
I have tried making friends online and apps like bumble and vila. I also reached out for help to visit me in hospital on fb... no one came. No response on apps or I csnt carry a conversation. My heart aches and I feel all control is taken from me. I csnt trust anyone. My mother spilled all my secrets to a psych I told her betrayed me. I am codependent in my mother so unfortaunfelg need her help as I was raised to need her for 24/7. I csnt drive or anything. Every day I want to die and have no idea what to do anymore

I suffer in similar ways. I have no friends either. I feel like we would totally get along I know that feeling, nobody could ever be trusted with absolute certainty. Do you ever get that feeling, like you are never happy no matter how good things are going? I get like that even when things are going my way. I have been working on myself to try and see the positive in a given situation. I can go from extremes: I either make a decision without thinking or I am completely indecisive. We should definitely be friends :)

 

[katz]

Welcome to the forum. I'm glad you found us. We will be here when you need an ear to listen too. You may also find out that you are not alone in how you feel. Look around the website and read what you want too. Try to find things that will help you feel better about yourself and your situation. Again - welcome.