Concerned

[Kaylove498]

I've been sober from drinking for two weeks now I was on a binge for awhile about 3 months to be honest.

I decided I wanted to be sober again and stay sober.

It's been two weeks and I am extremely tired all the time all l do is sleep I had one day where I stayed up 24 hours after I slept constantly for 3 days while my system cleared.I was tired but I pushed myself to stay up and deep clean the house I felt better finally after 3 days of sleeping and laying around after I stopped drinking.

I feel like I'm floating all the time or like I'm in a dream.

Yes I've dealt with these feelings before being that I know I have panic disorder ptsd and depersonalization.

My concern is I'm scares going insane I have these memories from when I was a child and they aren't bad but they all come in at once and it's overwhelming.

Is it severe again because I've stopped drinking is being this exhausted normal with anxiety and dpdr.

 

[Ronin]

Hey Kay,

You're not going insane.

Sounds like fairly normal withdrawal and your body readjusting back to healthy baseline, without having an extra addiction to be coping with.

Aka feels awful but is a good thing...

As the addiction is not masking these symptoms, and bringing its new on the table.

Give it time.

Are you in contact with professionals, a psychiatrist and addiction therapist over this?

 

[Friday]

Is it severe again because I've stopped drinking is being this exhausted normal with anxiety and dpdr.

Probably. In part.

If you were using alcohol as a coping mechanism / self-medicating to manage your stress & symptoms, then removing alcohol -and not replacing it with any other coping mechanisms- means that you’re now dealing with unmedicated & unmoderated symptoms rebounding.

As well as the other way around. ExhaustIon is a common side effect of withdrawal, as is being dazed&confused, as is emotional instability.

Everything you’re describing could be solely attributed to getting sober, and solely attributed to PTSD... but when you have both in your life? Both are usually contributing.

The first 2 years sober have a very predictable path that most people who have been addicted to alcohol -or even ‘just’ abuse &/or heavy use- follow. Alcohol recovery programs mark 24hrs, 1 month, 3mo, 6mo, 12mo, 18mo, & 2 years for very good reason... not just because they’re round numbers. Just looking at the alcohol abuse, taking PTSD & Trauma off the table entirely, you’re in for a rollercoaster? of symptoms. Adding PTSD & Trauma back in gives you a whole dang amusement park of “fun”. And, unlike getting sober, there’s no common timeline

Again, because you have both, both are going to be in play, in varying degrees, at varying times.

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I cannot more highly recommend that you get dialed in with a Dual Diagnosis group (Addiction &/or substance abuse + Mental Illness), to support you through this process.

 

[Kaylove498]

No.im not I'm contact with anyone at this point for anything as far as therapy or a doctor.

I've been completely sober for two weeks now.Only habit I have now is smoking cigarettes I know I shouldn't smoke but it has helped to a point with nerves.

Last time I got sober I don't remember having this hard of a time mentally.

I've been extremely scared that I'm going insane.

Some times I feel like maybe I'm obsessing again over everything I feel and think and other times I feel numb emotionally like nothing bothers me

I do my best to keep busy I stay up and clean constantly or I sleep just depends on the day.

I do have moments of complete clarity where I feel almost to into reality.

I've also felt my depression alot more in the last week I've been down but unable to cry and if I do cry it's for a moment and then I feel numb again

I've called some doctors and therapist but I don't have insurance so I've had a hard time getting in anywhere sadly.

 

[Survivor3]

I've been sober from drinking for two weeks now I was on a binge for awhile about 3 months to be honest.

I decided I wanted to be sober again and stay sober.

It's been two weeks and I am extremely tired all the time all l do is sleep I had one day where I stayed up 24 hours after I slept constantly for 3 days while my system cleared.I was tired but I pushed myself to stay up and deep clean the house I felt better finally after 3 days of sleeping and laying around after I stopped drinking.

I feel like I'm floating all the time or like I'm in a dream.

Yes I've dealt with these feelings before being that I know I have panic disorder ptsd and depersonalization.

My concern is I'm scares going insane I have these memories from when I was a child and they aren't bad but they all come in at once and it's overwhelming.

Is it severe again because I've stopped drinking is being this exhausted normal with anxiety and dpdr.

Hi @Kaylove498 , alcohol dulls the senses and memories. When you stop drinking it's like the 'door ' opens and memories come flooding back. Your not going mad and it happens to everyone. It's very unpleasant. I've been through it many times. Best wishes to you. All the best. S3.?

 

[Kaylove498]

Thank you so much.its very frustrated feeling.

I come on here alot and ask alot of questions because half the time I'm scared people that I'm close with will think I'm insane.

I actually have tried medical marijuana recently and it actually worsened it more I believe. I went into a horrible panic felt as if I wasn't here at all.for about a week now it's been worse than I can imagine.

I've tried different antidepressants to help with the depression and anxiety and I've always stopped taking them because they all made me feel numb emotionally which I feel anyways.

When I was in therapy a few months ago I had things I needed to do through my therapy such as see my triggers and for the most part I know my triggers.

It sucks at times though because I have alot of them certain shows that I use to love such as crime shows or investigate shows now panic me.scary movies panic me at times going for walks panic me because I'm scared I'll go insane and that I'm not fully in control of my body even though I am.

I've never lost my reality I always know who everywhere is and where I am at all times but I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything that I become panicked.

I almost obsess over it I go over my memories over and over to make sure I don't forget things out of fear.I literally will repeat in my head over and over that I know where I am and in a way it does help comfort me.

I know that sounds odd but it's a way that I I'm a sense check my sanity.Thats been my biggest fear since dealing with and and dpdr is losing my mind and losing control even though I've yet to do either.

 

[Ronin]

Core belief.

As in that you will or are losing your mind / sanity, is a core belief.

Those are not a reality, but persuasions about ourselves, others, the world and life that people cling to strongly, whether healthy or not.

They can be worked on and altered to live a more productive and content life. :tup:

Therapy is a good place to do that at.

But it reeeally helps to be clean and sober and stable, both medically and life situation / socially, before you begin working on it.

As it's a huuge bundle of issues to get into.