RussellSue
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Last year was rough: I tore the labrum in my hip - actually I tore them on both sides but don't know what the plural is for labrum and am also too lazy to look it up. ?The labrum is basically cartilage that lines the hip socket and protrudes a bit - it helps stabilize the femur in the hip socket. By the time I was done getting imaging completed I also had congenital hip dysplasia, hip impingement, sciatica, calcific tendonitis in my glute, and arthritis in both hips. But the labral tears were hell. They really hurt and I used a cane for much of the winter while trying to navigate my job, my public transit commute, by pain level and pain medication and anxiety. Labral tears never really heal but they usually stop hurting eventually - mine did about a month ago. ?
While I was in the thick of all of this, my pain level was consistently out of hand since I needed to maintain a certain level of sobriety to do my very fast-paced job. My pain level would hover around a 7 for most of my work day. Looking back, I remember very little of my winter and I have little concept for how I didn't just walk out in front of a forklift at work.
As this was happening, I struggled hard to speak to people due to extremely high anxiety - my boss, doctors, etc. I refused phone calls. I had nightmares. I had to get rid of my weighted blanket because I felt like it was smothering me. I wasn't able to make decisions.
Things have been wild lately with the pandemic and protests but in a lot of ways I feel like I am sobering up from an extremely severe anxiety and chronic pain bender. Most of my memories of the last year are really blurry and strange.
Has anyone else ever experienced this from dealing with long term pain in conjunction with PTSD? I understand that anxiety and pain affect the same parts of the brain and it stands to reason that with all my faculties tied up in dealing with that, maybe I didn't have much left for remembering, speaking or problem-solving but it's really weird. I am just curious if anyone else has gone through something like this.
While I was in the thick of all of this, my pain level was consistently out of hand since I needed to maintain a certain level of sobriety to do my very fast-paced job. My pain level would hover around a 7 for most of my work day. Looking back, I remember very little of my winter and I have little concept for how I didn't just walk out in front of a forklift at work.
As this was happening, I struggled hard to speak to people due to extremely high anxiety - my boss, doctors, etc. I refused phone calls. I had nightmares. I had to get rid of my weighted blanket because I felt like it was smothering me. I wasn't able to make decisions.
Things have been wild lately with the pandemic and protests but in a lot of ways I feel like I am sobering up from an extremely severe anxiety and chronic pain bender. Most of my memories of the last year are really blurry and strange.
Has anyone else ever experienced this from dealing with long term pain in conjunction with PTSD? I understand that anxiety and pain affect the same parts of the brain and it stands to reason that with all my faculties tied up in dealing with that, maybe I didn't have much left for remembering, speaking or problem-solving but it's really weird. I am just curious if anyone else has gone through something like this.