Rose White
MyPTSD Pro
First of all, I am sorry that I have to ask this. It feels really dumb and gaslighting myself. But my brain is doing a lot of discouraging stuff and I’m trying to push back. Also sorry for the description of sexual activity toward a baby.
Can someone please explain to me why a dad encouraging his 2yo to watch him masturbate to orgasm is traumatic? I don’t understand.
More dumb questions.
If a dad puts his finger in a baby girl’s vagina how is that traumatic if a doctor can do it too?
And if a dad puts his private on the mouth of a baby how is the person traumatized?
I understand how slapping and hitting hurts children. I understand how it hurts a child to make fun of them. But I don’t understand how those baby things mess up a person in the head.
Please don’t be mad at me for asking these questions. I looked up on Google and all I found was how to know if a baby has been sexually abused. I don’t understand how those things cause trauma since a baby doesn’t know what’s happening and doesn’t even know it has a body. I feel really stupid asking this. I know I would never do that to a baby and I would want to murder anyone who did that to my own baby, if I had a baby, but I don’t understand on a biological level how those things traumatize a person for when they grow up.
In my head I think the baby csa was not traumatizing it’s just that he did hit me a lot when I was a kid and teen and one time choke me when I was older and he did mock me and I think those things hurt me.
Also, my only confirmed memory is the first thing I asked about, the other two things are body memories, but I accepted them as true for my own sanity and once I accepted them as true the body memories stopped, but I don’t want to argue about memories.
Thank you for your help. I appreciate if you just talk about it in a biological way, not like needing any emotional support.
Can someone please explain to me why a dad encouraging his 2yo to watch him masturbate to orgasm is traumatic? I don’t understand.
More dumb questions.
If a dad puts his finger in a baby girl’s vagina how is that traumatic if a doctor can do it too?
And if a dad puts his private on the mouth of a baby how is the person traumatized?
I understand how slapping and hitting hurts children. I understand how it hurts a child to make fun of them. But I don’t understand how those baby things mess up a person in the head.
Please don’t be mad at me for asking these questions. I looked up on Google and all I found was how to know if a baby has been sexually abused. I don’t understand how those things cause trauma since a baby doesn’t know what’s happening and doesn’t even know it has a body. I feel really stupid asking this. I know I would never do that to a baby and I would want to murder anyone who did that to my own baby, if I had a baby, but I don’t understand on a biological level how those things traumatize a person for when they grow up.
In my head I think the baby csa was not traumatizing it’s just that he did hit me a lot when I was a kid and teen and one time choke me when I was older and he did mock me and I think those things hurt me.
Also, my only confirmed memory is the first thing I asked about, the other two things are body memories, but I accepted them as true for my own sanity and once I accepted them as true the body memories stopped, but I don’t want to argue about memories.
Thank you for your help. I appreciate if you just talk about it in a biological way, not like needing any emotional support.