What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Trinomial]

Insignificant, worthless. I'm also frustrated that I still don't see past today. I want to be able to have some sense of future, even if it's a crappy one. :(

 

[Grace11]

Extremely disappointed. In myself. In the people that are being paid to help me. In the fact that I put myself through misery and poor health the past few days because I thought today was the day I'd gain some closure, only to find out it's been put off for another month or two. There was no reason to make myself suffer so much, then? So....anxiety because it's dragging on even longer and I don't know ... anything. I just don't know anything, anymore.

 

[rjtransient]

What would the psychologist say? "You seem angry."

"I don't know. Do I?"

What's the point of defending an invisible boundary? Hello brick wall.

 

[Trinomial]

Why would you suffer yourself for a few days to gain closure? That sounds counter-productive.

 

[Grace11]

If you are addressing my post, it is because I'm in the middle of litigation over the cause of my trauma. It was supposed to come to some sort of resolution but has now been postponed for at least a month. I want to put part of this agony behind me so I don't have to continue reliving it before lawyers and the public.

 

[Trinomial]

I don't want to make assumptions or anything--the trauma is going to be there even after the case is done. So is that you are upset because the legal aspect is not taken of yet, or is it the trauma itself?

 

[Grace11]

Readdressing the trauma over and over to people who are judging (as part of their jobs) or hurting, also, makes it hard to move on. For me. I will never get over what happened, but reliving it and dealing with harsh words from strangers on a constant basis is extremely painful for me. I am facing the fact that I have no choice but to live with that aspect and try my best.....I just feel as if I'm facing a lynch mob over and over on top of my suffering and trauma, but it is how our system works.

 

[Trinomial]

The system is not humanitarian, that's for sure. Hang in there. You are your number one supporter and I'm sure you have support from the people here too. Good luck to you.

 

[Grace11]

Thank you, I appreciate every ounce of support in a way I'd never known was possible.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

fed up

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Frenzy

 

[intothelight]

Fearful about everything I say or do. Worried about the effects of everything I say or do. Paranoid that everything I say or do is wrong.:(