Only posted once here so far.
Not sure what I'm doing exactly. Therapy has slowly been getting close and closer to "the thing" I don't want to talk about. That I blocked for years. That I haven't remembered alot of details about.
Todays EDMR therapy touched it full on.
I was told to expect alot lot of "feeling storms" in the next few days.
To expect "instrusive thoughts"
Not sure what I'm writing.
Not sure what I'm trying to even get from writing this.
Not sure what emotions I'm feeling.
I just know it's only been a few hours since therapy and already there's A LOT of them and that I don't know what to do with them. I just know that at the moment I'm utterly useless for anything. I don't share my situation with anyone in my life so I'm just writing. Just writing. Just writing. To get SOMETHING out and empty myself in some way of these horrid feelings.
Just writing down words to people I don't know but who I know understand what this thing is in my head and what these feelings are that I can't put words to.
I'm sorry. This makes no sense, I know
This shit is HARD
Not sure what I'm doing exactly. Therapy has slowly been getting close and closer to "the thing" I don't want to talk about. That I blocked for years. That I haven't remembered alot of details about.
Todays EDMR therapy touched it full on.
I was told to expect alot lot of "feeling storms" in the next few days.
To expect "instrusive thoughts"
Not sure what I'm writing.
Not sure what I'm trying to even get from writing this.
Not sure what emotions I'm feeling.
I just know it's only been a few hours since therapy and already there's A LOT of them and that I don't know what to do with them. I just know that at the moment I'm utterly useless for anything. I don't share my situation with anyone in my life so I'm just writing. Just writing. Just writing. To get SOMETHING out and empty myself in some way of these horrid feelings.
Just writing down words to people I don't know but who I know understand what this thing is in my head and what these feelings are that I can't put words to.
I'm sorry. This makes no sense, I know
This shit is HARD