Anxiety, Panic Attacks and Intrusive Thoughts - Ending a 10 Year Relationship

[Survivor3]

Hi cazz, how are you today? Did you view the property?

 

[CazzTheGeek]

Hey @Survivor3 , my viewing got cancelled and rescheduled. Yesterday I was OK, I was hanging out with friends. Today not so good. My ex came back after two days, turns out his gf has a place of her own now. So I told him to leave and he said he can't, it's complicated. Just more drama, more pain, more crap.

I left to get some fresh air, currently at a local park, trying to clear my head.

 

[Survivor3]

Hey @Survivor3 , my viewing got cancelled and rescheduled. Yesterday I was OK, I was hanging out with friends. Today not so good. My ex came back after two days, turns out his gf has a place of her own now. So I told him to leave and he said he can't, it's complicated. Just more drama, more pain, more crap.

I left to get some fresh air, currently at a local park, trying to clear my head.

Hi cazz, sorry for the late reply, been out with a friend for dinner. I'm really sorry your viewing got cancelled, hope you don't have wait too much longer.

 

[CazzTheGeek]

Hi cazz, sorry for the late reply, been out with a friend for dinner. I'm really sorry your viewing got cancelled, hope you don't have wait too much longer.

It's been reschuled for next week, also trying to get a viewing for another place with the same estate agents. How have you been?

 

[Survivor3]

It's been reschuled for next week, also trying to get a viewing for another place with the same estate agents. How have you been?

I've been pretty well. Went to a mindfulness group by the seaside today. Had fish and chips for lunch. Enjoyed the group. Came home and chilled for a few hours them my friend L got in touch and suggested we went out for a curry . Didn't go to the Buddhist centre tonight. We were out at the Indian restaurant for about 2 hours. Put the world to rights! Haha .

 

[CazzTheGeek]

I've been pretty well. Went to a mindfulness group by the seaside today. Had fish and chips for lunch. Enjoyed the group. Came home and chilled for a few hours them my friend L got in touch and suggested we went out for a curry . Didn't go to the Buddhist centre tonight. We were out at the Indian restaurant for about 2 hours. Put the world to rights! Haha .

Sounds like an awesome day. I'm so happy for you!

 

[Survivor3]

Sounds like an awesome day. I'm so happy for you!

Thanks it has been a good day.

 

[CazzTheGeek]

Thanks it has been a good day.

I honestly don't want to bring down your positivity but I have to be honest. I'm in a pretty bad place right now. I'm staying with friends this weekend, so I'll find my smile again. But right now, I'm not much company.

 

[CazzTheGeek]

@Survivor3 Hey dude! Sorry about the other day. Just had a a lot going on and needed some time to think. How are you?

 

[Survivor3]

@Survivor3 Hey dude! Sorry about the other day. Just had a a lot going on and needed some time to think. How are you?

No problem at all, didn't even think I saw the message before, couldn't remember anyhow. Yeah I'm OK...I guess. I generally feel in a bit of a haze/daydream most of the time at the moment. People ask me what I've been doing and I have to refer to my diary. Had a sax lesson today. It went alright but i hadn't practiced all week, my teacher usually says "don't worry about it", but today she wasn't impressed! We're doing a tricky piece at the moment. I've been setting up my home studio and playing bass and using my drum machine. I did a night shift Saturday morning at work.

 

[CazzTheGeek]

No problem at all, didn't even think I saw the message before, couldn't remember anyhow. Yeah I'm OK...I guess. I generally feel in a bit of a haze/daydream most of the time at the moment. People ask me what I've been doing and I have to refer to my diary. Had a sax lesson today. It went alright but i hadn't practiced all week, my teacher usually says "don't worry about it", but today she wasn't impressed! We're doing a tricky piece at the moment. I've been setting up my home studio and playing bass and using my drum machine. I did at night shift Saturday morning at work.

I honestly understand how you feel, between my mental health, the divorce and finding a place to live, I'm also in the haze. The music stuff sounds like fun though, how is your set up coming along?

 

[Survivor3]

I honestly understand how you feel, between my mental health, the divorce and finding a place to live, I'm also in the haze. The music stuff sounds like fun though, how is your set up coming along?

The set up is. My drum machine, multitrack recorder, bass guitar and synth/piano, Sax and anything else i can plug in like vocals and percussion. Speakers and a brand new mixer that I bought (yet to set up and learn how to use)... I should use professional monitor speaker's but I don't want to annoy the neighbours so I use headphones or computer speakers which are more than loud enough. Also I treated myself to an early Christmas present. A brand new top of the range Roland drum machine. it's super duper. Gets delivered at the end of the month.