I dont know whats the point anymore

[Frannana]

Today wasnt a good day, had an argument that made me realize this life is not worthy.. im 33, lost all my best years isolated in a room, i wont get time back, no one is going to give me a job with 0 experience, everyone thinks im somehow faking it and they hate me.. Every day im just going trough the motions with the little carrot i put in fron of me that says "better days are comming" but they arent, i miss when i had a clear path to follow, when i had some friends i could count on ...
Miss the idea that i could still be who i want to be, now i dont know it its possible, if theres still something for me out there.

 

[KA60]

I am sorry for your trauma. I do understand when others gaslight our trauma and comorbities physical or psychological. Can you set goals for yourself each day? Cooking cleaning financial planning?

 

[ms spock]

Today wasnt a good day, had an argument that made me realize this life is not worthy..

Have you looked at Dr David Burns Distorted Thinking?

How our brains lie to us? PTSD brains lie to us

im 33, lost all my best years isolated in a room,

You are definitely not alone in getting this. This is a normal feeling of many of us who isolate.

Sometimes we just have to stay alive. This is an achievement.

i wont get time back, no one is going to give me a job with 0 experience,

This is future thinking. I do this too. But we do not know the future.

everyone thinks im somehow faking it and they hate me..

I am a person who doesn't think you are faking. I don't hate you.

Every day im just going trough the motions with the little carrot i put in fron of me that says "better days are comming" but they arent,

Some of these days will be bad and some will be okay and sometimes they will be good.

i miss when i had a clear path to follow,

I feel this with you.

Ignore if not useful.