Very, very normal, anonymous!
Are flashbacks normal to have? I have them just about everyday.
Oh yeah, no stranger to flashbacks here. Had them quite regularly for a long time. Sometimes they were so sudden, vivid and intense that I would go into a panic attack or have startle response just from seeing images in my mind and as if before my eyes. My flashbacks had improved considerably over yrs. but, now I'm doing something different, I'm owning, sharing and confronting my trauma and hoping to heal, and now the flashbacks have returned quite regularly, at times, but nothing to the intensity that they once were. Not yet.
Two things that have helped me are simply one knowing, remembering and accepting that the flashbacks are very normal for PTSD. And, the other is much of my trauma involves having been helplessly forced to live, when young, and know selfish and insensitive abusers, ie. past family memb. and people they'd regularly invite in. Family who abused one another in many ways as a way of life. I couldn't stomach them, or any copies of them. So now, living safely with husb. and kids and deciding who I will know and who I won't and whose allowed in our house helps tremend. Provides less stimulus, and provides security and decreases flashbacks, even nightmares, unless of course I'm willingly confronting trauma, but again nothing anthing like it use to be.
I use to have this body memory as a kid. Had no clue as to what it was then. My big toe on my right foot would burn, sting and hurt like heck. It's since gone away, but I'm pretty sure in my adult yrs. I came to know what it was caused from. When I was about 9yrs. old, I was asleep on our couch when my eld. sister thought it would be funny to light and hold a lighter to my big toe-nail. She did so until I woke up screaming and crying.
Anonymous, your life can improve greatly. You'll see, you keep doing the next right thing. Make and keep that commitment to yourself to heal, learn about you PTSD and grow in time, and all despite all circumstances, and I truly believe you, and your life will come together for you and all in time. I've seen too many true miracles to believe any different. Keep up your willingness and good work anonymous, you may not see it, but there's great hope for you, and even despite normal nasty, horrific flashbacks, that too, can improve. :hello: