What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

This may my happiest post yet!!:whistling:

I am so please for you Angelkeeper!

Hope you danced and danced!

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[Srain]

((((((((((hugs to those that are feeling that "sick" feeling)))))))))

I feel that too, as well tired. Rough week but feel like I got somewhere. Some sense of accomplishment, big sense of wanting to board up my home and NEVER come just in case I can't make this little reprieve last..blech.

Please..no phone calls, attacks, ridiculous bills, or accidents today!

 

[ms spock]

I am so broken hearted. I want to die. Having no family is so hard. It is so terrible. I feel like I have no one. It is important that I feel these feelings otherwise I am too vulnerable to manipulative and abusive people. But it is SO hard.

I am weeping a little bit...it is so hard. I have been so brave but it is difficult.

I feel so way from every thing and every one.

So I feel like going to sleep and avoiding the feelings and not finally submitting my research paper. It is so hard. I feel so much despair. My life is so alone.

I never thought my mother would actually poison my siblings against me. I really didn't think that, at 15, we were so close. And I so want them back. This is so sad. It is not reality based or feasible to get them back. But it is the yearning of my deepest heart.

When the people you love and adore are dead - there are social conventions for that. There are funerals and grieving and support. But for me, the loneliness of losing them is compounded by the fact they are still alive - even as their personalities were murdered when they were young. How do you explain this to people? I am not even sure it is a good idea to tell people.

Family, friends and community is so much of what binds us together and it is when it is gone that people even get a glimpse of what that is like. The child inside me sobs and sobs and sobs.

Every time I am present in my life rather than disassociated or rescuing people then the pain arises. So I have to be with it - and it is a bit of a relief when I have a bit of a weep. But the loneliness is difficult and the sadness is so big I can almost not breathe.
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[ms spock]

A bit overwhelmed

Take Care Rob Dog.

I have never enjoyed being overwhelmed my self and I don't know if you can do it, but is there any way to break
things down in to smaller bite sized chunks?

If you can't do that then be a little kinder to yourself the best you can right now.

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[ms spock]

Rough week but feel like I got somewhere. Some sense of accomplishment,

Well done! These things take a lot of attention to detail.

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[jo may]

Now I've been in town I feel so tired.
I feel sick but I always feel sick.

And my hubby is watching footy and I hate it when he does.
He gets so into it and cross and I feel unsure and kinda scared.

 

[Lionheart]

Anxious, nervous; have to make a 2 hour road trip out of town and being a passenger in a car freaks me out. I have Ativan to take but I still get scared. :confused: I wish it was over, but I am going to see my baby brother. He has schizophrenia and lives in an assisted-living home. I haven't seen him in over a year so it's like I really need to go.

 

[Sandra]

I hear you on long car rides Lionheart777. Ever since my arthritis got worse I haven't even been out of this city. I would like to get an old 1894 newspaper repaired that I have and I would have to go to Toronto to do that. And I absolutely hate that city. Even though it's only a 45 min. drive.

Feeling overwhelmed about a furnace repair I need to get done soon. I'm trying to find out if there is more one way to get it repaired but I had no reply to the one place I emailed to. If I have to get it done a certain way the repair is going to cost anywhere from $400 to $1000. :(

 

[Sammy]

I feel crappy. Just plain crappy.

 

[Queen Boudica]

This morning I felt like a big fat buddha! And then I thought, "No, it is more like Homer Simpson." I was sitting there, thinking "I have Homer Simpson's big fat belly" All I have to do is shave my head and paint myself yellow, sit in front of the tv, bottle of beer and a donut in my hands and keep saying "Doh!"

I certainly feel as dumb as Homer at the moment.

His philosophy in life: "you tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try."

 

[Sandra]

I love your humour Lizio. :tup:

 

[Rob_Dog19]

There's so much that I know I need to do...like start looking for an apartment, get ready for college to start again...take a shower, but I just feel so overwhelmed by it all that I can hardly even get out of bed.