What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tinyflame]

Yes, LH the article 'fits'.

I sure hope you live a verrrrrrrrry long (happy) time. :inlove:

 

[Sandra]

I often think when his death was from a suicide I have had feelings of it being a love hate relationship. I know it sounds weird.

 

[Tinyflame]

It doesn't Sandra.
But it sounds like he was too ill to stop it. :(

Occassionally when it has been very bad, I cannot remember 'anything'- even trying- not a single memory (at the time).
I realize I don't know the details of your story, but it most definitely is very unlikely it had any cognitive motivation or lack of love for you in any way, shape or form.

 

[Sandra]

Well that was partly why we were seperated at the time of his suicide. I had enough of his drinking, spending and not working. I just couldn't take it anymore. Yes I really did love him at first. But I found my feeling changed when I felt like he only loved my money and not me. But after he died, I think my feelings in certain ways surfaced again.

 

[Tinyflame]

They say that's very normal Sandra- it's a time when you feel all connections that were severed.

It sounds like you did the right thing, and that you (also) remember what is or was good.

But I can only imagine- terribly painful, beyond words. :(

 

[Sandra]

Hugs to you Junebug. I sure could use one too today.

 

[Rob_Dog19]

I feel uselss and pathetic

 

[Tinyflame]

Hugs to you too, Rob_Dog, and anyone needing them.
xox

 

[LawPhotos]

I am so incredibly sad. My Dad died a year ago tonight. It's just excruciatingly painful. I can't let myself cry. My life has been so full of tragedy that if I ever do let myself cry I'll never stop. I just really don't want to be alone and, of course, as always, I am. Even with everything I've endured throughout my life, I still didn't know a person could feel as much pain as I do now.

 

[ms spock]

Anxious, nervous; have to make a 2 hour road trip out of town and being a passenger in a car freaks me out. I have Ativan to take but I still get scared. :confused: I wish it was over, but I am going to see my baby brother. He has schizophrenia and lives in an assisted-living home. I haven't seen him in over a year so it's like I really need to go.

That is generous of you.

 

[ms spock]

I feel tired and stressed.

 

[Lionheart]

I can't let myself cry. My life has been so full of tragedy that if I ever do let myself cry I'll never stop.

I am so sorry for your loss LawPhotos!!!
Although I know it may seem like you will never stop cryin if you start, you will not cry forever. Let yourself cry, it is good and healthy and means you are processing the pain. I understand that the pain of loss and tragedy never seem to go away but it can get better. However, if you stuff the feelings and don't cry, the grief will last a lot longer. At least this has been my experience and is my humble opinion. I guess I want to say to you "don't be afraid or ashamed to cry, it won't last forever."