littlebird
Bronze Member
Hello there,
I wanted to share my accomplishements with you because I feel very proud of what I have acheived.
My therapy ended last month. I've faced and accepted my past and i've learned/am still learning to manage my symptoms.
The times when I doubted the process were always short lived. I was asked regularly by crisis wether I wanted to continue with the therapy. My answer, although I was terrified at the time, was always "Yes, without question." I knew that I had to push forward and that the only way out was to go further in, I had to face all those monsters from my past.
I had no one around me to offer me support except the mental health services, and the nights when the PTSD symptoms became full blown, was when my strength really shone through.
I can honestly say, like so many of us on here, that i have suffered hell and come out of the other side and now I wear my mental scars with pride instead of shame.
I came of all meds against the wishes of the doctors (don't do this at home folks) because I knew that they were'nt the answer, and it was the best thing I did because I wouldn't have done the therapy otherwise.
I still have problems socially and I've done such a good job of building walls around me that i'm stll very isolated, but i'm starting to change that already and have a cunning plan which i've already started to put into action
I've started voluntary work within the Justice system, it's early days yet and I have trainng to get through yet (That's gong to be a real challange for me) but i'll post up if i'm still doing it in March.
I've also been looking locally for social groups. I have to say though, that in all things i've accomplshed, this social isolation is one that is the hardest for me, and sometmes I do doubt whether it is somethng that I am strong enough to change around. Time will tell.
I've also packed in the smoking and drinking because that's not looking after myself, and these days I look after me because i'm important, and I've got rid of all the nasty people too, I did that last year and while it was painful and frightening to stand up to them and to walk away, it was one of my best moves. The nasty people where my family.
So in the mean time, in creating this new life of mine, 'll keep on pushing forward and roll with it all. I'll stop when I need to stop, and play like a child often. I'll cry when I need to cry and ask for help when I'm in need and as every day passes I will continue to grow and change and keep on accepting myself, just the way I am
I wanted to share my accomplishements with you because I feel very proud of what I have acheived.
My therapy ended last month. I've faced and accepted my past and i've learned/am still learning to manage my symptoms.
The times when I doubted the process were always short lived. I was asked regularly by crisis wether I wanted to continue with the therapy. My answer, although I was terrified at the time, was always "Yes, without question." I knew that I had to push forward and that the only way out was to go further in, I had to face all those monsters from my past.
I had no one around me to offer me support except the mental health services, and the nights when the PTSD symptoms became full blown, was when my strength really shone through.
I can honestly say, like so many of us on here, that i have suffered hell and come out of the other side and now I wear my mental scars with pride instead of shame.
I came of all meds against the wishes of the doctors (don't do this at home folks) because I knew that they were'nt the answer, and it was the best thing I did because I wouldn't have done the therapy otherwise.
I still have problems socially and I've done such a good job of building walls around me that i'm stll very isolated, but i'm starting to change that already and have a cunning plan which i've already started to put into action
I've started voluntary work within the Justice system, it's early days yet and I have trainng to get through yet (That's gong to be a real challange for me) but i'll post up if i'm still doing it in March.
I've also been looking locally for social groups. I have to say though, that in all things i've accomplshed, this social isolation is one that is the hardest for me, and sometmes I do doubt whether it is somethng that I am strong enough to change around. Time will tell.
I've also packed in the smoking and drinking because that's not looking after myself, and these days I look after me because i'm important, and I've got rid of all the nasty people too, I did that last year and while it was painful and frightening to stand up to them and to walk away, it was one of my best moves. The nasty people where my family.
So in the mean time, in creating this new life of mine, 'll keep on pushing forward and roll with it all. I'll stop when I need to stop, and play like a child often. I'll cry when I need to cry and ask for help when I'm in need and as every day passes I will continue to grow and change and keep on accepting myself, just the way I am
