Sufferer Newly Diagnosed, Confused, Worried And Alone.

[bitzer]

Im just so over being treated like something stuck to the bottom of my fathers shoe. I am sick of him putting me down. He takes great joy in doing it in front of family and friends. He brings out the best of his tricks in front of them, and I truly believe that they believe HIM.

She could not have been that naive could she?

I just want to come home from a 12 hour working day and not see anyone, not talk to anyone and not do anything.

"... something stuck to the bottom of my fathers shoe". My analogy - I was the family's washing machine; if anyone had bad feelings, they got projected onto me. They could all feel good because all the dirt and grime was washed out for them. Boy do they miss their washing machine now!

"She could not have been that naive could she?" No, she couldn't. I've never met her, so I don't know what was going on for her, but the answer's still "No". My mother knew what was going on and did nothing. There was only one thing she needed out of life - she needed to have a husband. Nothing was allowed to compromise that. Nothing.

I understand that you want to be on your own - I imagine you will be feeling totally overwhelmed by your family. The idea of not having everyone in your face is probably going to feel so good. You can start to focus on you.

Eventually you may want to start bringing selected people into your life. I suggest you take it gradually, be very selective, and be very clear in your mind what you do and don't want from that person.

 

[Smushroom]

I am so glad you understand bitzer...so very glad.. I went home last night (I've been staying elsewhere for a few days) and was told how selfish and irrespsonsible I am being. I sat there for half an hour nodding, and I can't really remember what they were saying. But when it ends with them chasing you out the door yelling, it couldn't have been too productive.

I honestly don't ever feel like i will ever want anyone back in my life. I used to be a people person, and was great at my job and relating to my clients. Now? I can't stand people. I honestly find them irritating and boring. I feel angry when I have to be with people. I feel as though I have better thigns to do than be around people (NOT saying I'm better than them) I don't know what has changed.., but now, I just crave silence, and wait for the times when I can be completely alone... Is that a bit strange?

 

[bitzer]

I honestly don't ever feel like i will ever want anyone back in my life. I used to be a people person, and was great at my job and relating to my clients. Now? I can't stand people. I honestly find them irritating and boring. I feel angry when I have to be with people.

It's natural to want to be around people. However, if you're feeling traumatically overwhelmed at the moment, you need your own space. You need to reconnect with yourself before you start reconnecting with others.

 

[Smushroom]

Very true...and I'm working on it :)