20 Little Friends In My Pocket

[sharky]

If you live in the UK, then yeah I guess that's the website to use. And yeah, Shisha is the tobacco that goes in the hookah. :) But if that's strong.. Then maybe try the zero mg? I use the American version of that website, I guess. It seems to be slightly different but not by much. It still has all the flavors and starter packs and stuff.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hey, had only 9 yesterday (a pack here is 25). For some miraculous reason that I'm not going to question, it was easier than normal. :unsure: :tup::confused: :) I am going to try to stick to 10 (max) per day (like yesterday).

 

[bright_morning]

I'm rooting for all of you. I remember how hard it was to quit, especially because I started at 10 years old and quit when 24 so my whole identity and emotional grounding was wrapped up in being a smoker.

All I can tell you is that it is possible, it hurts, but it's soooooo rewarding when you beat it.

 

[sharky]

Being able to breath for the first half of the day is extremely rewarding in itself. :) I'm still recovering, but it feels great not putting that shit into my body anymore. It's nice.

 

[Nighthawk]

Im still at 9 hoping to make some progress tomorrow.

 

[Springer80]

Woop Woop, I'm loving this! I'm really behind you all. I quit in January this year. I'd tried gum and lozenges an Champix (refined version of Zyban) but I found those put me in a mind set where I was trying to prepare myself for feeling deprived rather than being free and forgetting about it.

Substitutes are like those signs that say 'keep off the grass'...all they do is tell you what your not allowed to do. Any of the books by Alan Carr really opened my mind to addiction.

I went to a clinic for a day's specialist therapy and what they covered was good but not ptsd related. I quit for two weeks but drank alot of wine instead. I called a family memeber for help, said I needed to talk about my trauma. The reply I got was 'but I just don't want any of it to be true'.

That in a nutshell was what I'd been fighting against for a decade. It also was the catalyst to me understanding any addictions I've had. I stopped longing for help from an ungiving source and at the same time fighting their denial (with the help of 6 addiction therapy sessions). Once I understood that conflict I knew I could do it. When I moved house in December I was ready. I went back on Champix for two weeks to break the physical craving (you are supposed to stay on them for twelve) and that was it. Freedom!
It's really helped me move on a stage with ptsd too.

I was never supposed to be a smoker...I was a really sporty kid. I have put a bit of weight on but nothing major and it's worth it in my opinion. I'd rather be cudddly, than stinking, broke and cancerous or at risk from a stroke and end up paralysed. Bring on the doughnuts!!

By the way, I should say I do watch my alcohol level....too pissed and in the wrong company is a no no for me. Also if I'm walking home after a nigh in the pub, I'll cross the street to avoid the tobacconist. Simple but effective!

 

[Tinyflame]

Bright morning, -thanks, I started at 12 you see.

Springer 80, so do you mean the inner results of the external conflict were part of the impetus?
When I quit for almost 3 years I drank too much too.

All I know is Nicorette gum gives me chest pains without fail. Go figure. :oops: :rolleyes:

 

[Tinyflame]

.. hoping to make some progress tomorrow.

Some MORE progress NH. :) :tup: (((((Big Hugs)))), you can do it, you're doing it already. :tup:

Maybe we could call it the "More Air" Diet? :laugh::rolleyes:

 

[Nighthawk]

Junebug I totally agree " a more air diet" LMAO

((((((Hugs)))))

To 8 as a goal for tomorrow

 

[Tinyflame]

You'll do it. :)

 

[Springer80]

Bright morning, -thanks, I started at 12 you see.

Springer 80, so do you mean the inner results of the external conflict were part of the impetus?
When I quit for almost 3 years I drank too much too.

All I know is Nicorette gum gives me chest pains without fail. Go figure. :oops: :rolleyes:

Hi Junebug,

I mean I sort of 'regressed' myself to feel how I felt when things started to go really wrong and I started smoking at 12. I felt that scary falling, disappearing, powerless feeling and I tried to figure out how bad behaviour was a response to it. I started skipping school etc and as nothing seemed to work that behaviour became 'more', specifically hoping my mum would notice. So whilst feeling about that I wrote down a little list....Here it is. I keep the piece of paper.

Just a quick note....because I sought of auto-wrote it (dissociated) from my gut, I'd probably change it now but I'm giving you the 'gut' one.

Mum
Barrier/Signal
Out/In
Defiance/Inarticulate
Denial/Attention
Action/Poison

 

[PTSD sufferer]

Well done NH!

I did a half day with sharky's V2, but then got stressed and bought a pack! I don't drink, kind of my anti-thesis, but coffee has been a replacement, then I don't sleep, which increase my anxiety. Guess I should try to switch to decaf and try the patches with the V2 tomorrow. Can you mix them sharky? Don't want to talk to my chemist for advice....guess I will have to.