Sufferer Isolated And Need Support

[Quatam]

I must say that because of all the emotional bounding through the years, I have developed a box. And it helps guard me from any possible missile from getting to me again. It makes it difficult for me to have a normal life and relationships of true meaning or value like I used to have when I was naive. When familiar things happen it's like life or death and I mean no harm. I just want peace and understanding. And with disabling health I have to relearn how to live.

 

[Whitneys story]

Things are missing and then were they return it's the same stuff that has happened in the past and it never happened in the beginning of our relationship

I am so sorry you have this added problem. I had a friend that married. His daughter was attempting to get attention by doing some very childish behavior! Not even considering the effects to someone with PTSD. Would the daughter be a teenager thinking she is loosing her dad because you are also in the picture?

I wish you a quick resolve to this situation. It is not healthy for you. I am not blaming anyone just feel it is a valid question to look at. Whitney

 

[Quatam]

I had a friend that married. His daughter was attempting to get attention by doing some very childish behavior! Not even considering the effects to someone with PTSD. Would the daughter be a teenager thinking she is loosing her dad because you are also in the picture?

Yes there's a lot of competition due to past relationships of her father. And I am supposedly the first woman he has been with that is supposedly healthy? minded. I feel for her and have tried to get her help and it has not seem to work because she is so PTSD herself.

 

[Quatam]

I got her and counseling and they said she has an attachment disorder and abandonment issues so done the best that I can because I don't have any biological children I'm doing the best I can to be a good mom to her. I've never tried to compete for her dads attention or played games but for some reason she's always pushing the limit. He doesn't want to seem to see it even know I know deep down he knows it. I can't seem to try to communicate with him about anything without him getting madder blowing up. Which complicates my cptsd. I recently disassociated and it was in car accident do to it I just can't handle the stress anymore. It's like the team up and I am physically not well and I need some and helping hand rather than all this maze and insanity health is deteriorating because of all the stress. And I feel so alone and isolated I need to get back to living.

 

[Whitneys story]

And I feel so alone and isolated I need to get back to living.

Yes this is important! Parents are always defensive when it comes to their children. I read a book about it as my son had to deal with a step father and we did pretty good with it.....eventually! I will see if I can remember the name and get it to you. It may take a few days! In the interim please find some warm self care for yourself. It does wonders. Many soft hugs if you accept them, Whitney

 

[Quatam]

Thank you... very nice and yes.. I get lot's of hugs from my husband and the Lord!!

 

[anthony]

Welcome to PTSD Forum.

 

[Quatam]

Hello, I wish I could start from my beginning and come to current and ask how do we get through this... better yet how can I help you get through it? The terror, the fear that lurks though you don't realize it because you are too dissociated to see it anymore.. a smell, a person, a taste, a setting, dreams, Holidays, words, people, places, colors, cars, airplanes, elevators, spiders, tone of voice, slamming doors, a dead animal on the side of the road... so many triggers how can we absolutely identify with all of them.

I recently had an argument as my husband yelled at me. I had just dropped him off at work and splat drove right through a red light, I was not even there I couldn't tell the police what happened other than I saw a red light when I looked up to call 911. How do we catch these episodes before they become to our detriment?:hug:

 

[amethist]

Hi Quatam

I have merged your Introduction threads together, as you should only have one.

Amethist