What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Red Feather]

I feel dead inside. :cry:

 

[Red Feather]

They said what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Not having my kids doesn't kill me, but it makes my life unbearable. How am I ever supposed to get better?

 

[Shellbell]

I don't like that expression 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger', sometimes what doesn't kill you seems to hurt you forever.

Big hugs (((((((Nadia)))))))).

My only hope of getting better sometimes is seeing people on here talk about how they have gotten better, but it takes time and the healing journey gets very very hard, but there is hope.

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

(((Nadia my heart breaks for you -- please take good-care of yourself during this sadness)))

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling tired, but it is a good tired.

I've been sorting out our 2 spare bedrooms with H. It has been hard work (mostly for H and I have been supervising :D) but we now have 2 bedrooms just about how we want them. In a way it is sad as it is an acknowledgement that my girls have left home for good.

We have relaxed tonight, a good meal, a glass or 2 of wine and Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets - I hate spiders :arghh;.

 

[Bubba]

Crazy, overwhelmed, scared, tired, depressed...

 

[ms spock]

I recently watched the interaction of three generations where the mental illness, addiction and childhood sexual abuse has been passed down with little therapy or attempt to resolve the issues and it is sad to see the intergenerational effects. I feel pretty sad about this.

 

[Ruckster]

I am feeling "normal" nearly! I am finally starting to feel like I can think . I don't feel so edgy and anxious. I like feeling normal... Even appreciating my "normal" aches and pains.

 

[Philippa]

A bit concerned. The chooks don't seem to be in the garden anymore. The chook pen is full of feathers, and I was supposed to be in charge of making sure they were safe. My phone is broken so the woman in the house wasn't able to reach me to remind me to close the chook pen, and now they are all gone it seems???

I'm not sure if I need to feel guilty at this point, as there might be a reason for them all being not here, but as there is no way of finding out now, due to phone being broken, there's not much I can do except try not assume they all got eaten by a fox due to my carelessness and stonedness.:(

 

[ms spock]

I am minding the puppy whilst B takes his Dad and his Dad's friend for a drive. It is hard this dementia thing. He didn't even remember me visiting him in the respite care. He is frailer.

We have been working on puppy toilet training. Smart, cute dog but it will take awhile.

I am so tired. I just want to go to sleep.

I would have liked to go out and about, but given the situation we have stayed in the house and watched some TV shows and a movie. These are waiting times. Times for stillness and just being. I am noticing how I am feeling and how I am going. I am noticing how present I am and how spaced out I am. This is very good for me.

Gosh I am tired. I did some meditation and some being and that did help me perk up but gosh I am slumping again.

I would have liked to go out and about, but given the situation we have stayed in the house and watched some TV shows and a movie. These are waiting times. Times for stillness and just being. I am noticing how I am feeling and how I am going. I am noticing how present I am and how spaced out I am. This is very good for me.

B's Dad's friends came yesterday and I felt overwhelmed by them on two fronts. It was difficult, but I did the whole social thing well.

I am tired. So very tired.

 

[Shellbell]

I am feeling more positive now, as I am going to see a dear friend who I care so much about today :)

 

[reallydown]

This thread just caught my attention again...and I noticed I've been avoiding it like the plague...I guess that's probably because I am *still* not good at this emotion thing...But if I had to guess...this feeling...is probably pain...