What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[GreenFrog2]

Still exhausted. Erratic emotions, never ending tears and more fear that I have ever had before.
So lost and alone. Wish that I had people to talk to.

 

[timid_flower]

I'm disappointed and very sad. I went on a road trip with my sister yesterday. It was a lot better than I expected. I felt ok most of the day. Today on the drive back home, I had a bad panic attack. After I calmed down a bit, it hit me how much my life has changed with PTSD. :(

 

[Kim500]

Then she took a picture of her fortune cookie paper, which said "When they can hear, they don't listen." or something of the sort, asking what we all thought it meant. SO I replied, "When they can help, they don't." as my reply. I doubt she will respond in any kind or generous way, but I just had to speak my peace.

Good for you Sheila! People who haven't suffered seem to be very materialistic and don't have a clue! Of course she doesn't understand the quote! ;) I'm glad that you informed her. Some people need a kick in the butt for their own good! OK, maybe I was harsh there. (blushes) I'm sure God loves her and maybe He moved her to want to understand that quote so she can see what is really important in life. I'm glad you responded like you did to her with a concrete example that she could understand.

I feel sad :( and alone and depressed today...

(((((Many hugs for you!!!!!)))))) The song by Judy Garland, 'Somewhere Over the Rainbow' just popped into my mind! :headphone: Things will get better for you!!:hug:

Sheila look into your local utility company, unless you already have, to see if they have some sort of program for those less fortunate.

That was kind of you to mention that Britt! My gas company has a program where if you're low income you can get 20% off your gas/electric bill, and it's a life saver!

I feel peaceful and content

I am so happy that you've been doing so well lately dear gizmo! Reading your posts have really lifted me up! :hug:

 

[Kim500]

So lost and alone.

You're really not alone dear GF2. God loves you dearly and we on this forum are here for you! ((((((((((((((((GF2)))))))))))))))))))

After I calmed down a bit, it hit me how much my life has changed with PTSD. :(

I'm so sorry about that dear timid_flower! I hope you will accept these warm hugs! (((((((((((((timid_flower:hug:))))))))))))))))))
I'm reminded of something Anthony said in a post. It was basically that you can't go back to who you used to be, and that is because we are changing all the time, and that to think back is self-defeating(I don't remember his exact words!)

We don't want to be defeating ourselves, right? We want to be on 'our' side! Tell your sweet self that the best is yet to come, even if it's in a different form than before! Remember the caterpillar that turns into a butterfly or the Phoenix rising from the ashes! :hug:

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling funny and sleepy in my head.

 

[ms spock]

I'm feeling RE$ENTFUL because my niece, who drives a Mercedes sports coup, whose husband's family is made of $$$ and whose husband has a good State job, can afford to go to a massage therapist, pay someone to shovel and plow her snow in front of the house she inherited from MY PARENTS, while I cannot afford to pay my dentist to fill these 10 cavities I have due to my Acid Reflux that is eating my teeth up.

She posted all these little things about her life on Facebook today, about how tough it is because the snow blower died....

Then she took a picture of her fortune cookie paper, which said "When they can hear, they don't listen." or something of the sort, asking what we all thought it meant. SO I replied, "When they can help, they don't." as my reply. I doubt she will respond in any kind or generous way, but I just had to speak my peace.

And here I am, living on Social Security, having no heat in my house because I cannot afford it. It is 38 degrees F. outside. I don't eat any meat except chicken, etc. I posted a note to this effect on Facebook too, warning folks not to depend upon their Social Security to get them by in their old age.

Let's see if she GETS the messaage! I hope, I hope!

You might want to work on being assertive Sheila, rather than either coming across as having a go, being argumentative or coming across as being guilt tripping. What message do you want to her to get - that you are angry and resentful? Or that you require financial assistance to get your teeth fixed?

If you have goes at people, they will tune you out because no one wants to feel like they are bad or have stuff that they don't deserve.

Sometimes "speaking your piece" is best done in private so you don't alienate yourself from people.

Are you seeing at T that you can work on this stuff with?

 

[GreenFrog2]

Sometimes "speaking your piece" is best done in private so you don't alienate yourself from people

I do this - I even write letters to people where I really vent, but don't post them. It helps me to process all the crap that other people have dumped into my life.

 

[KatB]

I totally understand Kat! (((((((((((((((((((((((((Kat)))))))))))))))))))))))))

:hug: Thank you!!!!!

 

[Tanishq]

Sometimes "speaking your piece" is best done in private so you don't alienate yourself from people.

If you talk in private, you can know their intentions clearly in the least. Ms Spock, you have a point. If you post it as general then they are supposed to ignore you.

 

[KatB]

I just found out that I've had fatigue for a long time. I am somewhat relieved and happy that I know why I've been sooooooooooooooooooooooo damn tired. I can actually accept this and remember when it all started to happen. This is amazing. Yet, I also feel bad that I've had it for this long. I never really knew what fatigue was. I would always hear about it; read about it; but it never made sense to me. It never clicked. It was the "aha!" moment for me.

I feel: extreme exhaustion and despair for this time of year that seems to bring the damper on me, even harder. Lonely is what I feel. Thanks to forums and support groups like this, it helps lessen the intensity of my loneliness.

 

[Tanishq]

Thanks to forums and support groups like this

Dear KatB, have full rest and hope you feel well soon. :hug:

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling relieved. I had a cry and then a nap/relax on the couch with the dvds in the background. Something shifted. I was all wrapped up and I felt soothed. I let myself sit for a bit then I went for a walk for an hour and 40 minutes in the local nature reserve. It was good.