What Made You Angry Today?

[Sailorgal]

Just got an overwhelm on the other details like and accident report and stuff.

Yes it's a burden. I hope everything falls into place for you. I got hit right after work one day and it was .....I won't go into details - it's depressing!

Sorry you repiled to my message to Safenow. But same to you that I hope we are here to support and also, hugs to you Noel! Enjoy a cup of tea or whatever tickles your fancy!!!! Hope work isn't too stressful for you as you get through this. :)

 

[Noel]

What makes me angry is when a friend is so passive aggressive. Time for me to ditch her!

Yep - We have enough to deal with with ourselves to have to try to figure out passive aggressive "friends", sisters, brothers, or, whomever.

 

[Noel]

Yes it's a burden. I hope everything falls into place for you. I got hit right after work one day and it was .....I won't go into details - it's depressing!

Sorry you repiled to my message to Safenow. But same to you that I hope we are here to support and also, hugs to you Noel! Enjoy a cup of tea or whatever tickles your fancy!!!! Hope work isn't too stressful for you as you get through this. :)

Thank you so very much. It's nighttime here now, and I always do a little better at night when I get like this, because it's close to bedtime when I can crash. I apologize if I didn't do the reply right, new here, and learning the ropes. Thank you for being patient.

 

[endlessocean]

I am super angry about my last relationship. I am so angry that he stirred up all this crap for me, and made my symptoms go through the roof. He was an extremely sick individual. I got romanced in through lies and deceit, and when he let his hair down I was very sorry, but already ensnared. It took me so much energy to get myself out of the situation.

Once I was out, the real fun began, and I am still so resentful at the way I was treated, I think about revenge. I still get very angry thinking of the lies he told me, the degradation I experienced, and the fact that he got off scott free. I feel he had no consequences at all, and I know he will be victimizing others, probably for the rest of his life.

Because of my PTSD symptoms, many of my friends got sort of "burnt out" talking to me, and even my therapist was suggesting I find someone else. It is so insane how abusers know how to make you nuts in just the right way so you will isolate yourself through your crazy actions.

It burns me up even more that I am still not functioning properly, my life is in shambles because of my symptoms- depression, compulsive eating, smoking, isolation, etc. I will never receive an apology, or even an admission of what I went through. I am helpless and powerless against further attacks if he decides that is what he wants to do.

It is so difficult to stay positive and not let this affect my self esteem or make me feel like I am permanently crazy and should just give up.

 

[Sailorgal]

I still get very angry thinking of the lies he told me, the degradation I experienced, and the fact that he got off scott free.

Sheesh, sounds like I wrote this myself!

Endlessocean, ain't that the truth! It is really upsetting that NOTHING ever happens to the idiots (I'll be appropriate with my choice words here) that hurt us. Yes, they will continue on. Don't except any payback because it never happens. Sadly.

People told me getting angry was just wasting my time and hurting me. You know what, I actually told people they are wrong. I should be angry and I was. You should NEVER repress anger. Just don't let it debilitate you. I know exactly what you are going through because it happened to me. I had no clue about it til nearly a year later. No one understood why I was soo hurt and traumatized by it til I finally had my breakdown.

First thing I would say it forget the "happily ever after" positive thinking part. Think positive in terms of your health and well-being, like not being self-destructive emotionally or physically. As the anger subsides to where it's not 24-7, it will get easier. But for now, your main concern is just being safe and giving yourself room to vent, scream, cry, whatever it is to get that out. You're not in a place to look a year down the road and "plan your next steps." Comfort yourself in a healthy way. It's hard but you don't want to punish yourself for what that jerk did to you. It took a long time for me to get to the place where I could tell myself "You never deserved this." For so long I was angry and just hated myself, hated him and life in general. Why me, why, me, why me....and recently it has changed to "I'm not going to let this ruin my life anymore."

I'm paying the price financially, emotionally, professionally for what he's done. He's ruined my life - literally. And he has no guilt. You will get through this but right now, just comfort yourself. You need to be there for you right now.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I am angry that I have to live with PTSD. I am angry that my family got so dysfunctional that it fell apart. I am just angry at the world!

 

[Britt.f7]

Why is anger so difficult? I should be angry that my nephew od'd yesterday. Sadness, though understandable, is usually my anger. He stopped breathing and his brother saved him with cpr before the ambulance came.

He was doing good after he received treatment last year, then he moved back home to the city where it all started, and old friends. I hate that this happened. He's a good kid, just terribly mixed up.

 

[Sailorgal]

Awww Britt.....that is sooo sad. It's tough to see young, vibrant kids wasting their life away. Environment is a powerful force. Hope this next step he can be around a more positive one.

 

[Britt.f7]

Sailorgal, thank you. I just hope he makes it through to next week where he is suppose to go to a treatment center out of state. Maybe the scare of his death will keep him away from the drugs.

 

[rainy_daze]

Arguing with my partner. Myself. My partner. Grrrr.

 

[Britt.f7]

Okay, since anger is a difficult emotion to feel, I am going to say..until I can actually express anger, that I am disappointed. Today I was disappointed that my son's room had clothes strewn all over it when we put so much hard work into it yesterday. We cleaned it and put fresh paint on the walls. It looked so nice. Bugs me now.

 

[endlessocean]

Sheesh, sounds like I wrote this myself!


I'm paying the price financially, emotionally, professionally for what he's done. He's ruined my life - literally. And he has no guilt. You will get through this but right now, just comfort yourself. You need to be there for you right now.

It is so disgustingly unfair that we pay the perpetrators debt. How perfect is it to victimize someone else, and then since there is no justice in this world (or I should say rarely: especially in sexual crimes against women), not have to pay the price and project the fallout on the victim. It is just so insane to me. I am still sitting here, trying to focus on myself and get better and I cannot stop thinking about him. In this particular case, he did not actually physically rape me, but he exposed me to rape (and himself) which was enough to re-traumatize me.

Also in this case, loved him. I really think it is worse when there are romantic feelings involved. It is definitely horrible to be victimized by a stranger, but the trust issues I am having from this intimate situation being all a lie, and really being one long victimization is just crazy and has gone to my core.

Thanks for your response, and I am taking it very slowly, I have my short term (one day at a time) goals and I am just trying to stick to that.