Just Got Out Of The Hospital, And I'm On More Medication Than I Was Ever On...

[Cerulean Synapse]

I think this poses a big problem with psychiatrist today. I went in for a dissociative episode and they marked me with a minor mood swing and stuck me with saphris and all this other drugs that I don't know may or may not be safe for my particular disorder.

I feel drugged out have of the time slobbing. I'm at peace finally which I suppose in a way is a good thing. I don't want to kill myself because I am drugged to the point of sedation. I wonder if that is the whole point.

I mean can psychiatrist do that they kept me in their for 15 1/2 days. I don't know. And I am pretty sure one the the alters they were play mind games with until the shrink had to believe him. The suicide note the whole hospital now knows was not written by me but one of my alters and because of that they keep me heavily medicated in case that one where to show again and well this one I guess severely wounded.

It's just not fair. I said I will promise to take my meds but this feeling is just making me sick. I lose weight from not eating. At this point I'm at least at peace and bewildered at the drugs I'm on.

 

[safenow]

Cerulean, which ever alter wrote the note was trying to help. Keeping you that sedated is one way to assure you won't attempt suicide.

It's just not fair.

It is very hard when you have more than one personality and they all want to do what they want to do and you can't. For a little while, try not to fight it. Once things settle down, talk to your doctor about cutting back on the meds. Most doctor's have no clue how to help a multi. Forgive them. ( I know that is not an easy thing to do. I've been a multi over 65 years.)

When they believe that you are going to kill yourself, they have the right to keep you for a long period of time. If you live in the United States, it is against the law to force you to take meds unless you are suicidal, then they can inject you without your agreeing. sorry.

 

[poeticprincess88]

I've had several hospitalizations. Remember the medicines might only be temporary. Almost every hospitalization I've had they have increased the number of medications I'm on then I go to my regular psychiatrist and they are changed again. Sometimes many doctors push pills rather than get to the root of the problem. I hope you can find someone with compassion that will help you get to the root of the problem rather than a million pills. To me pills just numb out what were not supposed to deal with.

 

[Cerulean Synapse]

Thanks everyone for their support on this subject. I will talk to my doctor about this.

 

[safenow]

I will talk to my doctor about this.

I'm glad you are going to do that.

Here are some affirmations that might help as well:

I invite assistance from friends and loved ones, past, present, and future, to lend me their support and strength.
I see myself surrounded by their love and caring, and I feel it all through me like warm wave.

Taken from the book,"Invisible Heroes: Survivors of Trauma and How They Heal." by Belleruth Naparstek.