Worsening Depression..... Please Help.

[KP the nut]

It has been an absolutely beautiful day here, the song birds singing, squirrels playing, the soft spring breeze blowing etc. For today I am soaking it up.

Seeing the sun and being in the open air is like chicken soup (and meds:rolleyes:) for your soul. Good for you.

 

[Whitneys story]

((((((((((((LH))))))))))))

Rambling can be beneficial! This is your thread and if you wish to ramble feel free. Sometimes the little things come up.

The old adage "don't sweat the small stuff" is the biggest deception. Let it loose and roar.

PS: We are starting a new challenge May 7. You are more than welcome to join us. The results have been amazing.

I am pretty sure the success has been in the team efforts. It is not a contest. We will have both an open thread and a personal conversation. Friends helping friends and growing forward and new!

Great to see you out in the garden! Hugs, Whitney

 

[p-no]

Hope you'll feel better soon, LH! I feel, people have said it all and all I can add to it is that being outside and actually moving helps me a lot whatever is going on that negatively affects me. I remember a summer in Canada weeding alfalfa on a huge field! Never felt better in my life! :)

You seem to be taking good care of you! I hope the call with the doc has shed some light.

 

[Lionheart]

I am still waiting to hear back from my doctor's office..my psychiatrist only works where I am seen 1 day per week and is at the VA the rest of the week, so I don't know if they have reached her or if she has called in medication as of yet. :confused:

I'm having some hip and back pain (fibro, arthritis?), which has given me a case of the "blues", but we know this is not the same as clinical depression, so I am grateful for that at least. Happy that there are things I can do to help relieve the pain, (hydrotherapy, stretching and light exercise, OTC pain relievers, herbal therapy, etc.) ....it's just that the chronic nature of it can be frustrating and one gets tired of hurting so often. Still, I am not as depressed as I was.

It is entirely possible that I will not get a response from my doctor today and will have to wait out the weekend. If this happens, I will be staying close to the computer and my forum friends. ;)

I want to thank you again for all the wonderful responses. I am so used to being discounted, rejected, condescended to, etc. that I had some fear of posting this thread. I guess when ya get treated a certain way a lot, ya come to expect to get treated the same way by others. I am happy to find that I was wrong...again. :inlove:

Healing hugs for all,
Lionheart

 

[KP the nut]

I am so used to being discounted, rejected, condescended to,

You know you will never get that response here. :hug:

 

[Lionheart]

You know you will never get that response here. :hug:

Yes, and I am so grateful!!! :hug: It is very healing to be treated with dignity and respect after having been mistreated for so long. :happy:

 

[Lionheart]

I recently reached out on facebook, siting the worsening depression and pain and how I needed my friends and family. The results were dissappointing to say the least. My daughter told me to keep my head up and there was one other brief response, and that was all.

I am upset by the lack of support as most are either close friends or family members. I am hurt and dissapointed. I do have my sisters support but she is dealing with her own anxiety and depression issues and is not able to really be there for me at this time.

I can't shake how disheartening it is to not have real support from the people that I love.. *(with the exception of the good people here, who I do love and cherish for continued support)!!!

Aside from that I have the blahs and "the blues", but I am not having any pain at the moment.. Anxiety levels are low. Nightmares have ceased (for now), and depression seems to be stable right now.

I need to get offline and call my doctors office again about the depression medication. I still have not heard back from them since calling last Friday.

hugs for all,
Lionheart

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

(((Lionheart))) I'm sorry that you haven't received the support you need from the family and friends that should be able to give you.

My brother once told me he isn't comfortable sharing his emotions on FB. Of course, he doesn't show or talk about them in real life either. I'm learning to let go of my expectations of support from my family in regards to the loss of my Dad in December. I assumed that my brothers, at least one of them would call to see how I am doing as caretaker of my mother. I have received NONE, ZERO, ZIP from them. I'm trying to be okay with it, since they didn't call me before he passed.

I have found, on FB, that people either 'lurk' and are too afraid to post anything, or they post silly stuff. People probably think I tend to 'overshare' but, I don't care. I put myself 'out there' because I choose to be connected regardless of whether I receive responses. I hid who I was for many years, and have worked hard to be 'real'. I'm proud of that considering all I've been through.

I hope that you can believe that you are special and awesome, and certainly deserving of support. I think that people really don't know how to give it! A lot of people (I'm tempted to say 'most') prefer hiding from anything emotionally negative because it really makes them think, and FEEL! They want 'feel good' stuff, and/or entertainment. Their lack of response, I think, is a fear of saying the wrong thing, or of letting down their own walls.

On one of my stays in the psyche ward, during a group session, the leader pointed out that the only difference between 'us' and 'them' (meaning the people who struggle but don't reach out) is that we have the courage to face our feelings and get help for them. You have the courage to keep in there and get the help you need. It takes a true man to admit he needs help and fights to get it!

As a former medical professional, and patient now, I find that trying to get something or someone to help on a Monday or a Friday is very difficult. It's the same in most kinds of business I think. I've heard one should never have surgery done on a Monday, the first day back after the weekend, or a Friday when everyone is ready for the weekend. Sad, but quite possibly true.

I'm SO glad the nightmares are not flaring, nor your pain and depression. Managing all these things, along with the complexities of our lives, is so hard sometimes, which is putting it lightly. You certainly deserve respect, encouragement and admiration for what you have overcome. I KNOW most people couldn't have done it. There is NO rejection here!!

I'm working on managing my depression/pain/anxiety without the help of my family, who I know love me. They just don't have the words, or comprehension of what we have endured, and it's easier to just ignore their feelings or inadequacies. Maybe your family and friends are the same.

I just want to remind you that you are a STRONG, INTELLIGENT, COMPASSIONATE friend to everyone here, from what I've seen and read. That's what counts...who you are and knowing that you deserve the best!!

Blessings, hugs & good thoughts being sent your way...

AKJ

 

[Lionheart]

I put myself 'out there'.... I hid who I was for many years, and have worked hard to be 'real'. I'm proud of that considering all I've been through.

I think you have succeeded. You have certainly been a real friend to me here. I am totally grateful for your friendship and for your insightful, compassionate support.

I too hid who I was for a long time. I too try to be real and put myself out there. It isn't always easy but I decided that if no one knew me for who I really am, then no one could love me.

Some may reject me or even ignore me, but I refuse to live in hiding. I am happy that you have reminded me that I have chosen to be real and put myself out there. I too am proud of that.

Above all, I want to say thank you for being you!!!! ...and thank you for encouraging me to take a look at the kind of person I am.

*(I want to say more but I am drowsy as I have just woken from :sleep: sleep and I am not as clear-headed as I could be.)

wishing you much love and many blessings,
Lionheart

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thanks, (((Lionheart)))
I only pointed out what I've seen, and I appreciate your kind words. We are in a fight for quality of life, and sometimes forget what we have already battled, and WON!!!

We all, as a group, hold ourselves together, so that we can all have a better chance at managing our depressions, anxieties, and fears.

It was very nice to wake up and read your special words.

Have a great day....(((HUGS))) :hug:

AKJ

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear LH, short on words but big on love (((((((((((( :hug: ))))))))))))).

 

[Lionheart]

I woke up this morning feeling depressed again. I am in pain from fibromyalgia too, which makes things worse. I see my doctor for the pain this coming Tuesday so I'm trying to keep my head up.

I haven't had to deal with this degree of depression in a very long time, and I think my Pdoc cutting depression medication to half the regular dosage was the wrong thing to do, but because of the interaction with another medicine, I suppose it was required. I am trying to make transportation arrangements so that I can see my psychiatrist for a re-evaluation.

I may have to reschedule my appointment to see the Pdoc so that I can arrange transportation, and this will delay my recovery, but I have little choice at this point. *(My car 'bit the dust" a couple months ago and I have to depend on others to get me to the appointment, which is out of town).

It is like AKJ said, "We are fighting for a better quality of life." Sometimes that fight seems to be a losing battle, but I will not give up!!! I have come to far to give up!!! Still, I wish I was feeling better. Depression is a 'monster' that I could live without. :(