I'm Normal Dammit! Oh Wait......%#&*

[JustBe]

Abstract said...

Then I hit up against the fact that I can't even manage a basic interaction with a friend without serioues repercusions; I can't even cope with therapy; I can't reliably get anywhere at any given time and can be as much as 5 hrs late; my house and life is a total mess and doing anything at all seems to leave me incapacitated after

Yup! *raising hand and waving* That's me too!:bag:

 

[aka]

Thanks for the chuckle. I needed that.

That is what I was going for, glad to be of assistance. :)

Come join me, and we can do a taster table. Sounds good, don't you think?

Sound great though I think we should bring more than just cheese. :D

 

[HëllaBubz]

I went to start quoting parts of posts I liked from you guys, then had to delete it all because I realized I was about to quote entire posts!

If you go to jail, let me know which one and I'll send you a cake with a file in it. Not for the bars, but for your nails. You will need something to do while you rest from all those struggles in the outside world.

But this part made me laugh my arse off, and then go, that's not such a bad idea.....the only problem is - if I went to do a crime so I could spend some much wanted time out, something in the PTSD would make the whole bloody thing backfire! Argh!

Then I hit up against the fact that I can't even manage a basic interaction with a friend without serioues repercusions; I can't even cope with therapy; I can't reliably get anywhere at any given time and can be as much as 5 hrs late; my house and life is a total mess and doing anything at all seems to leave me incapacitated after.

And yes, I totally get this. I've discovered that if I have a rare day with energy, if I don't flog myself getting stuff done that day, I can, surprise surprise, make some of it last til the next day! But then after that I truly am stuffed!

Here is an excerpt from my journal entry this morning. I hope it can help someone:

My other half and I, after several years of frustration trying to get my finances to work, have hit upon a (seems like) winner. I know how much I have in each part of my budget, and he updates the balance each time I spend.

So every time I want to buy something, I call him to confirm the funds from that section are available, if not, oh well, next time! It's actually working pretty well! That way I don't have to cook my head trying to work out numbers when I'm tired and not thinking straight, and it keeps me out of financial strife.

Given how much shit my brother in law has given me over the past few years about money, he saw my budget last weekend and I think he finally understands why I have been struggling when there are so many things I need but cannot afford.

And damn you all for talking about cheese, now I'm going to have to go find some!

 

[safenow]

"Holding sides from rolling around on floor laughing."

Sounds like you have a good team thing working on your finances. I wish I had that kind of help. Sigh. Yesterday, I spoke to someone about possibly getting some help on my financial situation this month, and he said they would help me get food so i can use that money to put on my bills. Good plan in my book. It helps. Problem is, I only have $75.00 allotted for money each month, so that is not a big help, but at least it's better than nothing. You know what I mean?

had to delete it all because I realized I was about to quote entire posts!

Highlight the area you want to quote, then click on it, and a "quote me" thingy will pop up. It transfers only that part you want. Gosh, I hope that made sense.

safenow

 

[HëllaBubz]

Gosh, I hope that made sense.

Lol, what I meant is that the whole post was awesome, so might as well just like the post and be done with it!

not a big help, but at least it's better than nothing. You know what I mean?

Yeah, I totally get you! It's hard to work with 2/5 of 5/8 of f*ck all!

 

[HëllaBubz]

Does anyone know what I mean when I say that sometimes I see my reactions coming before they happen, but I can't stop them anyway? Like my brother turning on the TV, and a millisecond before I jolt upright, my brain already knows that it's him, but the rest of me is startled anyway? I feel like half of my reactions are orchestrated, but at the same time they aren't.

If I'm totally taken by surprise I don't actually startle, I freeze and the most unpleasant sensation rolls through my body, but other times like when I'm half asleep and hear someone, I know they are there and it's fine. BUT if they do something like drop something or flick on the light it will actually jerk me awake and I'll sit bolt upright an feel really vulnerable.

I feel like such a fraud-I knew they were there, and yet it still managed to startle me somehow. If I'm a puppet, then who the hell is jerking my strings?

 

[JustBe]

YES! Me too! I feel so dumb:x3::shy: