"Are you just that f*cking stupid or are you deliberating trying to manipulate me into being triggered?"
Oops, I did say it. Bad, bad me. :eek: :mad:
I was really angry. We were just talking about one of my triggers and it got really upsetting. So we both changed the subject to something innocuous and the first words out of her mouth, an example about what we were talking about... totally related back to my trigger (the one we were JUST discussing) and since she was saying it... oh, disaster! I went off. It would have been great if I only asked this question once, but no... I repeated variations on it at least 8 times. In the end, she basically admitted that she had made a mistake because she wasn't thinking how it would affect me and then two minutes later said something like, "But it's such good progress that you were able to express anger." But it wasn't the real anger that needs expressing... it was that I refuse to flight (run out of the office), freeze (stop talking) or fawn (become the perfect patient and say what she wants to hear (people pleaser)) my way outta therapy! I had already been triggered more than once in the session... anger was all that was left. But it was a fight or flight reaction... not getting in touch with my anger regarding my abuse. (I didn't say this to her.) Whatever! Therapy is not my forte. :wtf: