Don't Know If This The Right Place, Self Image What Do You Think Of Yourself?

[nomedic1]

I think of myself as old ugly man, a loner who can even scare away people by them seeing my photo.Do you guys feel the same or am I just an ugly old man

 

[keifer]

I have that same impression. People stay away from when I have my cane. Perhaps I'm diseased.

To answer your question, ugly no. Nothing wrong with being a loner.

 

[Hopeful85]

I see myself as an annoying kid. :( I tend to be lost in my head at times and other times I'm super social. It's confusing to others.

 

[saoirserylyn]

I'm a walking enigma to the people around me. I'm so terrible at actually letting anyone in. Even if I tried, they'd only get a fragment of what I really am. I feel like a monster purposefully hiding Sometimes. Other times I dissociate which seemingly makes me some kind of social butterfly.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

I know I'm good looking (been told) but been single for a year now because I shove them all away. So maybe I'm a good-looking loner, but I feel a bit like saoirserylyn. It's like I'm this walking mystery to people, they keep staring at me and all the time I feel like a complete lunatic who could draw a knife anytime and attack them for doing so...

 

[franciemarnie]

I feel like I am 11 or 16 usually. Them I look in the mirror.

Not!

I had nightmares once upon a time that when I looked in the mirror, my face was of a terrifying monster alien. I'd wake up screaming. Thank God that phase ended years ago.

No way are you an ugly old man. Hate to use cliches but feelings are not facts.

 

[Madhather]

I stay away from mirrors. I have a lot of old types that play in my head, from the past, that reinforce my poor self image. I'm also a loner.

 

[Notsowild]

I'm actually a lot better now looking at myself in the mirror. I think I'm pretty cute. But that took a lot of years. But walking down the street I have people stare at me. I feel like an alien but being a tall redhead doesn't help.

 

[Tinyflame]

@nomedic1 if that is your picture you are neither old nor ugly.

:hug:

 

[The Albatross]

Self image huh? Hmmm, not too good. Plain is generous, homely is more appropriate. Damaged sort of fits. I'm pretty self conscious though I really haven't had all that many experiences that validate that outside of my two main abusers (father and first husband).

Mostly I'm okay with it now though I am cultivating a Helen Hayes vibe and quirky, warm persona as I prematurely age. Only time will tell if I get it.

 

[The Albatross]

Relate Madhather to the mirror thing. Very seldom can I look in the mirror except for a part at a time. Looking in my eyes in the mirror is very difficult still.

 

[Abstract]

This is one area I have made a lot of progress with. Mostly because I was in denial of trauma but was being treated for an eating disorder. Most of my life I have detested my physical self and felt like a freak and almost inhuman. I was told I was attractive but I didn't feel it and wore really baggy clothing and tried to disappear as much as possible. I now seldom feel like a freak and can often accept myself and even feel attractive at times. I still resent that I have to have a physical self but I have come to terms with the fact that I have no choice. I am obliged to have a body and maintain it with food, rest etc.

I think it is usually our internal feelings and the feelings of our trauma that we confuse for how we look or are perceived.