Sufferer Died Twice In An Accident....never Really Made It Back.

[Disposable]

In a motorcycle accident 2 1/2 years ago. Died twice, and long hospital stay. Disconnected and not really feeling like I made it back. I purposely avoided harming a family if four and an elderly gentleman by crashing into a wall at 66 mph after my front tire blew out. Did everything right....or did I?

 

[SeanCharles]

Welcome to the forum!

I purposely avoided harming a family if four and an elderly gentleman by crashing into a wall at 66 mph after my front tire blew out. Did everything right....or did I?

In many ways, you spared life by making a sacrifice, you did what you could given the circumstances. I feel strongly that you did everything right. Things would have been quite different had you done them differently. The downside of this is that sacrifices do come with a price. The upside though was whatever you did to purposely avoid hitting the family and elderly gentlemen definitely was done so with good intention. The front tire blowing out was likely unexpected. Again, I applaud you for your actions.

I hope you can find the answers here you seek, I know I am finding more and more as I explore and interact with different people here, all of them that I have met are very nice people. I'd like to know more, but I will never push and I am a great listener.

Thanks for Sharing.

 

[franciemarnie]

Welcome!

The more you learn about PTSD and the after effects of trauma and unreleased trauma energy, the more it will all make sense.

But you did do the right thing. Your feeling disconnected results from the trauma, not from making the incorrect choice.

 

[SeanCharles]

@franciemarnie I agree with you 100% The more I am learning about PTSD and in my case the unreleased trauma energy,the more things are making sense.

 

[Hashi]

Welcome to the forum.

I died during trauma and came back, then spent some time at the very edge of dying again. I've had to work through this a lot in therapy and on my own.

I've had to call my spirit back in a number of ways, and one was quite literal. I'm not religious but I do need to frame some things in terms of spirit - I don't know how you feel about that. I've also needed more practical everyday grounding and mindfulness, somatic therapy, psychotherapy and other things.

Is there anything that helps you?

Are you seeing a therapist?

 

[Barconian]

Almost 2 years ago, there was a car harassing me because the learner rider in front of me, while I was riding my bike sitting on 40k's an hour in a 50 zone... She felt nervous about going too fast because of the law. The people in the car behind us became extremely aggressive, the usual stuff, honking, flashing, yelling, sitting on my ass. I stood my ground and protected the learner from the idiot behind. I was given a broken collar bone, a broken shoulder blade, 5 broken ribs and a shitty knee.

Because I believed I did the best I could do... I didn't suffer any more anxiety than I already had

 

[Disposable]

Thanks for the kind words. It is 1:24am, and I am awake. Of course waking feeling as though you are on fire is never a fun way to wake up. As far as doing the right thing, I'm at a point where dying would have been the better option. For Christ sake, I hit a wall doing 66 mph. PTSD is a death sentence. Ice tried meds, therapy, and even the craziest of therapy. Nothing works!! I've just tried this adderall garbage! Supposedly it was supposed to help me through the day. All it's really done is made me focus harder on the problem. Hopef

 

[Barconian]

Ice tried meds, therapy, and even the craziest of therapy.

Huh?

 

[Hashi]

Nothing works!!

What are you expecting, and how quickly?

Approaches don't fix us, they are there to help us work through things. A lot of us have spent 2 1/2 years or longer just trying to find the things that help. I don't think any of us like that fact, but sometimes that's the way it is. Recovery takes time.

Why were you trying craziest of therapy?

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome.

PTSD is a death sentence.

I totally disagree that PTSD is a death sentence. As can be seen by many on this forum. We survive, we manage our symptoms, we share and gather support from one another. My trauma was an accident, I didn't die but had severe injuries. I worked with a great therapist and I now have my life back.

Ice tried meds, therapy, and even the craziest of therapy. Nothing works

No idea what Ice is? Therapy takes a long time with commitment. There is no quick fix. What forms of therapy have you tried and why were some crazy?

 

[franciemarnie]

Like @Hashi, I called my spirit back literally too. I went to someone (non-religious) who assisted me. That was a tremendous help.

PTSD is no death sentence. You just have to find what works for you. I understand feeling frustrated and fed up though.

I have woken with the PTSD heat flashes. I don't know if you mean that when you say you wake feeling on fire or if it's related to injuries sustained.

Knowledge is power. Keep researching and trying out healing solutions. Who is defining "craziest of therapy" for you? The establishment authority figures? Or you?

 

[intothelight]

Hi Disposable,

Welcome to the forum!

To second guess ourselves and ask "what if" is perfectly normal, but it can become almost crippling with PTSD. When you ask yourself if you did everything right....what is "right" in circumstances such as a car accident. All anyone can do is the best they can do at the time.

PTSD can be treated and over time, it does get better, much better. I hope you find the information and support on this site beneficial to your healing.

Take care.

Debbie