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PortiaWA

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Hi Everyone.

I believe I may have undiagnosed PTSD. I am diagnosed with Psychotic Depression, which resulted from a traumatic episode in my life 8 years ago, I also suffer extreme anxiety (diagnosed) but my GP refuses to medicate me for that. I have not been able to fully manage my depression, even with medication, I take 300mg Deptran (Doxepin) daily.

Before I was diagnosed with depression (6 years ago) I assumed I was suffering from PTSD, from the trauma from a couple of years prior. The psychologists dealing with me at the time did not agree and said I had APD and Psychotic Depression. So I went, under their advice to start taking anti-depressants.

In the near future I am having to attend a psychiatric appointment for gender disphoria, so I can start hormones to transition (M2F), but I have been delaying that appointment due to my feeling that my initial diagnosis was in err. I really dont want to be denied HRT because I was misdiagnosed at some point prior.

I found this site while researching PTSD, and thought I should sign up in stead of lurk everybodys threads.

My Trauma in short:
I lost everything, my home, my car, my family; everything but the shirt on my back--and all because of someone else's (a family member) greed. Oh, and I ended up with criminal charges on a number of occasions for trying to obtain my personal property from my former house. The police felt sorry for me, they could see what was happening, so I did not do any jail. The person who ripped me off and tried to destroy my life has not been charged to this date.

I have been living in "temporary accommodation" for the past 8 years and have managed to rebuild my life to some extent, but I cant manage the "depression" because the underlying issue of how I ended up on the bones of my arse is still unresolved.

Perhaps its not PTSD, I'm not qualified to make that call, but I know myself and I know there is more to my state of mind than depression and anxiety.

I'm going to lurk the threads here and try and learn some things.
 
Hi, and welcome to the forum.

Can you seek out the help of a psychiatrist to prescribe you medication? I'm a bit worried that you're being denied anxiety medication since you're anxiety is so bad. I understand that GP's don't want to prescribe dependence causing benzodiazepines, but today there are a number of other medications that can help with anxiety that don't have a dependence factor.
 
Thanks for the welcome.

You are right about my GP not wanting me on benzo's, I have had drug addiction issues in my past and that is why she does not want me on benzo's. Both me and her are "old school" so I don't know of any newer anxiety medication that isn't habit forming--is it ok that I ask for a link or 2 to some info about these?

I am hoping the psychiatrist will treat my anxiety, but his niche is gender disorders, so I don't know. I will find out in the the next few weeks. I don't have the ability to "just go and do it", I'm trapped by my illness--which is why I'm starting to again question that it may be more than depression & anxiety.
 
Hi... I really hope you'll find help.

But your therapist may be right. Besides, you can't cure your PTSD with meds. Treat it but not cure, especially if you tend to get addicted. Can't rewire your brain that way. Try finding a good psychotherapist who can work with you on your emotional world and your traumas.

Remember, rewiring and healing (processing past trauma) takes physical changes in your brain and it can be done by accessing the traumatic memories... Drugs give temporary relief. So best of luck to you.
 
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I'm not looking for a cure--I'm looking for a way to function normally; As it is I cant hold down a job, relationship, anything. I'm not just after drugs--I can get drugs if I wanted drugs. I want to be able to have a normal life, or at least as normal as I can get to. Currently I'm 3 steps away from being catatonic again.

You mentioned non-habitual anxiety meds, can you please link me some info?

Just because I was an addict in the past does not mean my illness is any less valid.
 
Sorry, I cannot help you with meds, I don't know any...

Of course, being an addict in the past does not mean your illness is any less valid. I never said that.

I assumed you wanted something permanent. If right now you want meds, maybe someone in this forum will know more.

Of course, someone professional is best in this case.
 
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Yeah I kind of figured after spending the last hour or so reading this forum that a lot of you are the "woe is me" crowd with actually no inclination of helping anyone but your own fragile egos.

I really do apologise for stumbling upon this site. My bad.
 
Dude, you need a chill pill. Some manners, too. Also you're welcome.

Next time, don't go shopping for meds (or drugs) in a virtual space. Good day.
 
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I'm not shopping for drugs. You were the one who mentioned that there are non-dependant anti anxiety medications--I just asked what they were.

And THEN to mention I need a "chill pill"; Yeah--f*ck you!
 
BTW, that "F*you" isn't necessary.

Why are you so mad at me, is it because I took my time to reply to you and try to help? Well, that's a good lesson, I'll have that in mind for the future.
 
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Ok I think we all need to calm down. @PortiaWA I think it's a little mean to describe a whole forum of people as egotistical we have all been through some pretty rough shit in our lives and help each other deal and cope with it.

I'm sorry for what happened to you and for what you are going through now and I also know it can be easy to lash out at people when we awe not well. I hope you find the help you are looking for. Peace and love. Xx
 
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