I felt like telling a bit about my last sessions.
A week ago after I have released some anger and stress, I actually could easily straighten my back posture, which
was bent since childhood due to stress.
But I want to give a review of the last time.
I walk up at 4:40. took about 2 gr. raw powdered Syrian rue with orange juice and some water.
I had about 15 minutes walk, and then took about 2 gr. raw powdered mimosa hostilis with water
(This is my simple recipe). It was bout 6:40. I have made a request to connect more to my singing and to my body.
A few minutes later I have reached my destination, which is a field.
About 30 minutes probably after the mimosa, I started to sing the Ajo Sacha plant song,
Which asks for healing. Immediately I needed to purge. Before, during and after I screamed.
There were horror screams.
I then continued singing, during singing I deed feel at a place where asking for healing, I felt like I connect to the meaning of the song.
I was silent. I had some unpleasant thoughts about the traumas I and losses I have had, and worries about the future, and worries if healing is possible.
I then thought I am complicating things looking for healing and solutions and simpler to connect to the present moment. It was an insight for me.
My body began to tremble from feet and up, and I was making voices which were also releasing.
After that I started to sing and dance together, I felt my body a bit clumsy. I then put Ayhuasca music on my phone, and followed
it, which felt easier. I continued to tremble during the dance.
I sat and my body continued to tremble. Turned off the music, and I felt my body intimately from the inside. It was a remarkable feeling. Since childhood, I felt far from my body. During all the process I could feel how part of me is still bored and far.
I could see/ feel a fence between two parts of me.
I laid down and trembling continued.
All the session I felt, like somebody is giving me a treatment from the inside,shaking me etc, But of course opening my eyes, nobody was there, It seems like the plants are giving me a private treatment.
At about 8:30 I have left and went home.
I had insights that I need to treat my wife with gentleness and not concentrate on what disturbs. Also that I shouldn't concentrate on my difficulties and traumas, but try to enjoy what I like, as much as I can, and this is a key for my healing. Though I find it difficult to enjoy, I would try to enjoy what I can.