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I've lost the ability to actually tell how I feel. I don't know. I feel like I'm going through a really weird time and have been for a month or so now. My mind feels like it is floating, I had suspicions that I was dissociating but I have pretty much ruled that out because it's gone on for so long and it's really inconsitant. I can tell when I am happy and when I am sad, the fairly obvious emotions. But when I am annoyed at something or something upset me, I will sit there for hours not knowing how I feel. I know I am annoyed but I don't feel annoyed, I just feel numb.
My boyfriend is constantly asking me if I am okay, he's the worrying type so I'm used to the constant asking. I usually reply with "yeah, I'm good" or "yeah, I'm okay". But it's gotten to the point where I just want to put "I don't know".. I don't because I know it would worry him more and he'd get all concerned and boyfriend-ly.
Does anyone else go through long periods of numbness and cluelessness to how you feel? How do you cope with it?
I find in these periods I am also really prone to breakdowns at the drop of a hat, I cry extremely easily over anything, my indecisiveness goes off the charts and I end up crying because I can't chose a cereal for breakfast. It's getting silly and really pathetic and it's worrying my boyfriend. He'll ask what movie I want to watch and when I reply with "I don't know, you chose" he'll tell me it's my turn to chose and I will end up crying and being in a state for an hour because I couldn't decide what movie. It feels like everything gets thrown up in the air and I don't know how I feel or what I want or even who I am. Everything is heightened, I jump at every tiny thing - I have even started literally jumping out of my computer chair whilst playing a game on my computer when the enemy does something so simply as auto-attack a minion (it's a game and I won't go into it). But I am usually fine and it's nothing I don't expect, I've done it and seen it done a thousand times in the game, but I still leap out of my chair and drop my computer mouse on the desk startling me even more.
It's getting ridiculous. Does anyone else have any advice?
My boyfriend is constantly asking me if I am okay, he's the worrying type so I'm used to the constant asking. I usually reply with "yeah, I'm good" or "yeah, I'm okay". But it's gotten to the point where I just want to put "I don't know".. I don't because I know it would worry him more and he'd get all concerned and boyfriend-ly.
Does anyone else go through long periods of numbness and cluelessness to how you feel? How do you cope with it?
I find in these periods I am also really prone to breakdowns at the drop of a hat, I cry extremely easily over anything, my indecisiveness goes off the charts and I end up crying because I can't chose a cereal for breakfast. It's getting silly and really pathetic and it's worrying my boyfriend. He'll ask what movie I want to watch and when I reply with "I don't know, you chose" he'll tell me it's my turn to chose and I will end up crying and being in a state for an hour because I couldn't decide what movie. It feels like everything gets thrown up in the air and I don't know how I feel or what I want or even who I am. Everything is heightened, I jump at every tiny thing - I have even started literally jumping out of my computer chair whilst playing a game on my computer when the enemy does something so simply as auto-attack a minion (it's a game and I won't go into it). But I am usually fine and it's nothing I don't expect, I've done it and seen it done a thousand times in the game, but I still leap out of my chair and drop my computer mouse on the desk startling me even more.
It's getting ridiculous. Does anyone else have any advice?
