Panic

[Bookoffee]

I am walking around stuck in my head and have decided that the "fact" is that all my co-workers hate me and are annoyed with me. My mere presence is problematic. I have to fight back for saying "I am sorry I am a live and in your way".

I feel as thought every type on the computer is someone telling another person bad about me.
I could go on about how sensitive I am right now.

 

[TXbandit]

Hang in there! I know the feeling. I feel that way with people in the office I work with. They don't talk to me like they use to, easily aggravated because I'm not there all day like they are, resentment.. you name it. I think sometimes I read too deeply into it and I start having irrational thoughts about my co-workers. It's not easy to deal with but I keep going, doing what I need to do and try not think about it. :hug:

 

[Go Hungry]

It's just symptoms, remind yourself of that. These aren't your own thoughts, they are a manifestations of an injury. I get this sort of thing very often at work, and it's always a massive pain in the ass to continue working despite it. Just put your head down and keep busy until it blows over..

:hug:

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

We love you, Book!!!! We love you so much that we can't stand being without you. I wish I could hug you right now and yes, it's a part of being us. I felt like I was in the way of my family as I was nobody special. I am a person. I am a human being. I'm somebody.

Screw the rest of those who ignore you. We love you here. They don't matter! In fact, they're nobody!

 

[KwanYingirl]

Hi @Bookoffee havent read anything by you for awhile! Sorry work is a pain in the ass. Let it blow over. I'm glad I'm self employed. No more drama at work.

 

[seedling]

That's what makes it is about PTSD that makes work difficult. Those voices that tell us things from the past. They tried their best with me today.

Does is help to try to imagine ridiculous things about your coworkers or the situation? Something to break that grip on your brain.

 

[sun seeker]

These aren't your own thoughts, they are a manifestations of an injury.

You can't imagine how much these words helped me today, @Go Hungry. Thank you!

Sorry for what you are going through @Bookoffee.

 

[Bookoffee]

Thank you everyone. I am doing a little better today.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Seen on facebook today"if people are talking behind your back-just fart"

 

[Bookoffee]

I am walking around stuck in my head and have decided that the "fact" is that all my co-workers hate me and are annoyed with me. My mere presence is problematic. I have to fight back for saying "I am sorry I am a live and in your way".

I feel as thought every type on the computer is someone telling another person bad about me.
I could go on about how sensitive I am right now.

So it was not my PTSD this time, it was the truth. I was written up because I am perceived as "Unapproachable" and "Short" with other co-workers.

I am stuck in a bottomless pit....

 

[KwanYingirl]

It may be your PTSD percolating beneath the surface that's projecting that belief. My moods are all over the place and I'm always the last one to know. Awareness is step one. Be kind to you, you are vulnerable.

 

[Bookoffee]

I am extremely vulnerable. In the write up it stated that I discharged a client and told them they had go through our intake process. The write up went on to explain that all the proper documentation and notes from providers that the intake process was not needed. My boss had to call the family back to apologize and schedule them.

I looked up the client and everything was false! Not one statement on the client care was accurate. I went to HR to show them the write up along with the evidence. They told me that my boss probably read the dates wrong.

The situation had nothing to do with dates, it had everything to do with documents and what is stated in them.

I am trying my hardest to stay positive and keep thinking there is hope, love and happiness.

I am so damn naïve.