My Apologies Where Needed:

[stillstanding2]

As a new member, I said some things last week that evidently disturbed some people, or at least bored them enough to prompt ending a valued thread. What I hypothetically proposed was that someone could write a fact-based account of the maltreatment of someone with PTSD, masking the sources entirely, but highlighting the kinds of events which contribute to PTSD.

I thought I was illustrating a possibility that abusers could hear and fear. But evidently, others on the forum saw my effort as a hazard to themselves. For that I am sorry. As a life-long sufferer of PTSD from numerous circumstances, I value the privacy afforded by the forum, and hope not to have ruined my own credibility.

I also want to apologize if I violated any forum rules when I began as a new member last week. That was the second time I registered as a member. Earlier in the year, I joined and contributed to the forum as simply "stillstanding." I chose to re-register as "stillstanding2" with a different email address when, for some reason my computer would not accept my password. If that was illegal, I'm sorry again, but if it can be forgiven, I would appreciate your transferring the credits I acquired as "stillstanding" to my new account as "stillstanding2".

I'll not give any biography here, but I assure you that I am quite responsible with what I write professionally, and the ideas I proposed were purely not for my own profit in any way.

If I am no longer welcome on the forum, please tell me.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Earlier in the year, I joined and contributed to the forum as simply "stillstanding." I chose to re-register as "stillstanding2" with a different email address when, for some reason my computer would not accept my password. If that was illegal, I'm sorry again, but if it can be forgiven, I would appreciate your transferring the credits I acquired as "stillstanding" to my new account as "stillstanding2".

We have a help desk forum for some of your concerns, so perhaps they might be better addressed there.

I'll not give any biography here, but I assure you that I am quite responsible with what I write professionally, and the ideas I proposed were purely not for my own profit in any way.

I am unclear as to why you are punting your profession, clearing the path of possible motives and defending yourself in a safe forum.

So notwithstanding - Hello and welcome aboard.

 

[stillstanding2]

We have a help desk forum for some of your concerns, so perhaps they might be better addressed there...

I'm sorry again! I thought I WAS reaching the Help Desk. I certainly meant to.
And the reason I mentioned my profession is that some members seemed to question my qualifications as a writer.

 

[stillstanding2]

We have a help desk forum for some of your concerns, so perhaps they might be better addressed there...

I need help, and my next therapist appointment is days away. She is out of the country.

No one but you has replied to my post, and I'm feeling an unusual surge of vulnerability to making a fool of myself. My recent interactions with others, including the forum, have seemed so hopelessly ineffectual that I suddenly feel like crying. That's something I rarely do anymore.

I feel utterly misunderstood and written off as just another irrelevant flake, or even as a fraud. I haven't felt this alone for years. I even felt out-of-place yesterday at my grandaughter's 6th birthday party in another city, so I returned home early instead of staying the night as invited.

I don't know what to say next, if anything. But thank you for your comment.

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

No problem. I create chaos and scandal all over the place. :p You are overly and unjustly criticizing yourself. You didn't do anything wrong. Personally, I try to respond to many posts, especially ones that have few responses. Sometimes, there are so many threads started, that they get "bumped" way down the list quickly, and are not seen much. Don't take it personally. If one doesn't generate many responses, fire off another one and see what happens. :) Simply be truthful about who you are as an individual, and about your personal feelings. It's all good. ;)

 

[stillstanding2]

No problem. I create chaos and scandal all over the place. :p You are overly and unjustly cri...

Thanks so much for hearing me. I don't think any one thing caused the nosedive I've had today. Right now is the first real crack in my self-confidence for some time. As it unfolded today, I became confused, alarmed, then abnormally depressed. Self-harm crossed my mind long enough to prompt my plea for help. I think I'm coming out of that now and look forward to my therapy session. I hope I have not imposed on you.

I had "birth defects" which for years of ridicule and bullying led me to feel like a useless, dead-end freak, despite having a loving family. I've spent my adult life defending myself and others successfully in print, and that is a prized part of my identity. Besides that, I've endured injuries and surgeries, career cruelties based on jealousy, numerous other personal tragedies, the worst of which was my beloved wife's death. I've seen plenty of trauma while helping victims of disaster, both natural and man-made.

So "slings and arrows" normally bounce away. But recently they haven't, and that has led me to self-doubt today. The last thing I want to do is harm, especially to those already harmed.

Thanks again for your help. I won't be a parasite for your support, but welcome your comments any time. Take care of yourself.

 

[RussH]

@stillstanding2 You concerns regarding re-registering can be addressed at the help desk, and will be responded to accordingly/
As for not getting many responses, there may be a simple explanation: You may not have offended anyone, therefore no one felt the needed to respond.
Secondly, when you post it generally will get more response if you title the post with a question.
Other than that, welcome to the forum. I expect you will be a valued member here, and I will look forward to additional post from you.

 

[stillstanding2]

@stillstanding2 You concerns regarding re-registering can be addressed at the help des...

Thanks very, very much. This has been a hard day for me, and I still don't know exactly what triggered it. I really didn't start out trying to begin a new thread, but rather to send an apology to the Help Desk and get clarification about my re-registering.

I'm a little disoriented right now. If you could help get my apology to the Help Desk, I would appreciate it. I'm not a techy, just a well-meaning journalist.

 

[stillstanding2]

Thanks very, very much. This has been a hard day for me, and I still don't know exactly what tr...

Can anyone help me? I've been trying to reach the Help Desk, but my computer tells me that the given link is "Untrusted." What gives?

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

It should be fine. A moderator has already seen this thread, it seems. No more action should be necessary, in my opinion. I don't believe you will be judged here. We all have our personal issues, and I, for one, am very accepting and understanding of other people who suffer from a mental illness. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

 

[Recovery4Me]

I need help, and my next therapist appointment is days away. She is out of the country.

For clarification purposes, the Help Desk that has been recommended is for I.T. concerns such as your registration if you still wish to ask and as the staff recommended.

But my computer tells me that the given link is "Untrusted.

You might consider contacting the provider of the protective software that has stated the link as such, if no further info was given on that message. Then you can consider whether or not you wish to use the tab and present your question in the Help Desk Area. Many questions are answered by Anthony himself and that is where he addresses them.

:)

 

[joeylittle]

@stillstanding2 - here is a direct link to the Help Desk

Please do post your account question over there.