I Realize That I

[Ronin]

I realize I maybe shouldn't shut up just because everything I say feels empty (big question mark) (recognizing depressive distortions but still not sure what to do with them. Cue not trusting own head, and reflexes on this one say the opposite of this realization.)

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Cashew ... I enjoy your commentary quite often! Please do not give up your voice...ever. :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

Not sure if I entirely follow @Cashew but I hope you feel good about posting here. Nothing that you feel is wrong. :hug:

 

[Ronin]

Thank you both @Junebug and @Recovery4Me , totally what I needed to hear yay or nay on and very appreciated. :tup:;)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Today I realized that by going out of my comfort zone in taking on a very difficult class in college, not only am I getting back in shape, but I am slowly building up stamina which will better prepare me for getting a job. I am not as mentally exhausted and drained as I was in the beginning and when I find myself exhausted I come home and rest and it is doing me good.

I really got far away from my comfort zone and getting slowly used to my new normal. I just wish I did not have the anxiety and fears. I think with repetion I will slowly work those two big issues down to a dull roar I hope anyway.

 

[Nighthawk]

Never forgot the pain but I sure did not miss it.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I cannot speak when I sense that someone else has problems or worries. I remain quiet and don't say anything even if I wish to speak to someone because I also have problems ...

 

[Recovery4Me]

I realize that I am very proud of @Anrish ...I mentioned her courage to my son last night and her being a police woman that scaled mountains. I also spoke very loyally concerning the people on this board with their introspection, determination and loving support.

However my dear Anrish..I specifically mentioned your username and offered that you were one of those who understood my need for self defense. As police hold much respect within my family... I thought you might like to know. He smiled brightly and offered how much you give to so many in service.

 

[void]

@gizmo
You absolutely BLOW my mind, with the progress you are making and the courage you are showing in your life.:wideeyed::joyful::wideeyed::joyful:

I wish I could express my awe and how impressed I am with how hard you have worked on yourself.:happy::happy:
You are an EXEMPLAR for all of us:)
You are worthy of great honor.
It is not celebrities, politicians, CEOs, born-rich a$$holes that ought to be praised and admired.
It is women like you, who fight and grow and heal and bless others with your example that ought to be celebrated.

A toast!...(raises imaginary glass)...To Gizmo, may peace continue to replace your pain!

:hug:to you!
Void

 

[Ronin]

Ditto to @Recovery4Me. I mentioned @Anrish to someone the other day as a cop that restored my faith in cops.

 

[Kailani]

People are clueless about ptsd and what is needed. They can't see it therefore it is not there and does not apply and no help for it.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Wow! @void Thank you so much. You really are a angel. Your words mean so much to me, they touched me so deeply. I so appreciate you being the way you are just as you are and I raise a toast to you as well for you being you. Many hugs and so much awesome gratitude.